any 30+yo cels? tired of loneliness. spent decades by myself

[wastedTime]

even without counting loneliness my life was a hot shit regardless. men are not appreciated in our times unless they're above average

meanwhile all women are appreciated no matter how ugly stupid short fat broke they are. no matter how far below the average woman they are.

and don't get me started on things that clearly improve their lives way more than they improve mens lives: social media, selfie culture, makeup, beauty products, dating apps

civilization in 2023 is unbalanced and favors females to the degree not ever experienced before. it's a suicidal boiling pot of depression and misery for below average men.


I've been lonely as far as I remember and recently these feelings of loss and regret have been surfacing as I've been growing older.

I understand the blackpill and redpill in and out but before I understood it I was already too ill mentally and physically as well as too late in the rat race. I've already consciously and subconsciously given up by the point I understood the pills.


due to constant rejections I learned how to live by myself but it seems as I'm growing older I'm also growing sadder and the way I've lived until now doesn't seem to do it for me anymore

anyone can relate?

I sometimes feel like ending it

 

[Kogoro Mouri]

I am 28 but i can relate
I have no job no career still living with my parents getting a gf is the last of my hopes

 

[Fancy Alcoholic]

Yeah.

This shit is killing me too. Sometimes I simply can't sleep and try to think about how my life could have been if I had been in a happy couple with a GF since high school.

I had to watch the most horrendous degrading porn in the middle of the night to feel absolutely disgusted by my miserable thoughts craving for a foid, and to finally find sleep. I hated it tbh

But still.

This kind of mental breakdown mainly happens after social events involving foids or couples. This kind of things tend to be suifuel at some point.

Social life is the problem, as you contemplate all you're missing ... Ignorance is bliss.

 

[Epedaphic]

Yeah dude I can relate for sure. I’m in my 30s and have been super lonely and isolated for decades but especially the last 5 or so years. It was getting to be a lot before Covid, watching everyone I knew from hs and college getting married and starting families (after YEARS of dating around and of being in relationships) while I have had nothing of the sort for my entire life.

I think covid made me realize how truly isolated I am, I watched everyone I knew who was around the same age spending time with their spouses and families, and everyone younger going out to party even despite the lockdown rules.

It often times feels like at this age that the ship has just sailed. I have refused (and will probably continue to refuse) to accept that “it’s over,” despite all the pain and suffering that comes with attempts to socialize. But if I have to live out my life watching others experience abundantly and with ease what I have struggled for decades to have… it just seems like a life of torture and sadness. I’ll be fine, I’ll find a way to cope, but shit man, it’s bad and it’s getting worse.