the last 4 years I have spent all new year's eves alone at my room telling myself that I would change pursuiting my dreams, get a job, learn something new and make new friends, but NOTHING has changed and I spent all these years (coping) at my computer playing and being depressed and now I realised that I'm fucked because I'll have to do mandatory military service and I have no choice because my family don't want to support me because I don't do anything. ( how am I supposed to do anything if I don't have support ? )
I remember when I was 15 I thought that when I reach 18 - 20 I would know what I was going to do with my life haha. ( I was so innocent ).
I asked my mom for support, but she doesn't fucking care about me ( only about her chad boyfriend ).
My dreams are fading away and I don't have any motivation to do anything.
I'm sick, my body is weak, my head aches,I can barely get up of bed and I can’t afford my medication.
maybe next year things are going to be different.
This is my first post here and I just wanted to get this off my chest.
I remember when I was 15 I thought that when I reach 18 - 20 I would know what I was going to do with my life haha. ( I was so innocent ).
I asked my mom for support, but she doesn't fucking care about me ( only about her chad boyfriend ).
My dreams are fading away and I don't have any motivation to do anything.
I'm sick, my body is weak, my head aches,I can barely get up of bed and I can’t afford my medication.
maybe next year things are going to be different.
This is my first post here and I just wanted to get this off my chest.
