Barely been using anything other than discord and this forum tbh. It's been an overy week. Woke up today running on about 4 hours and a one-side-of-the-face type hangover. Its cold. And life sucks fucking shit. So of course it's all just miserable. A lot of "why even live" tier lines of thought. Just woke up, had my morning drinks to remove hangover and restore my motor skills and dragged myself out of bed.
I threw the shower on
and did my usual of throwing it on the hottest possible setting, burns tbh. But feels good too. Makes up for all the lost warmth in life, I like to imagine that the heat is just making up for thousands of hugs i'd otherwise have had in life if I looked like a human being and not a walking pathogen. Also i guess sometimes seems to help with the cold sweats and muscle tension I get from acute heroin/alcohol withdrawls.
I've got ahold of another 2 bottles of spirytus though, so figures I can just reset my brain for a bit my wiping out a fuck ton more neurons and making tons of them dormant for a while with it. The titles kind of a pun I guess, because it's a "rectified" spirit. I mentioned this god tier nectar of a drink in this thread some weeks ago:
incels.is
As a result I figure I have an out to make this next week a little bit better than the last. Basically I'm going to just load myself up with fucking copium and cope like fuck. It only ever makes a small bit of difference. Went to the shops not too long ago today and stocked up on more alcohol and food. I think later today or tomorrow i'll start making a huge, slow cooked beef stew. Food is good cope and I guess its fitting due to the winter. So that's it I guess, shitty thread conclusion. I'm going to just try and feel a bit better than I do right fucking now by getting split-dimensionally wasted and heartyfoodmaxxing. I hope you too, all have a good day regardless though.
I threw the shower on
and did my usual of throwing it on the hottest possible setting, burns tbh. But feels good too. Makes up for all the lost warmth in life, I like to imagine that the heat is just making up for thousands of hugs i'd otherwise have had in life if I looked like a human being and not a walking pathogen. Also i guess sometimes seems to help with the cold sweats and muscle tension I get from acute heroin/alcohol withdrawls.I've got ahold of another 2 bottles of spirytus though, so figures I can just reset my brain for a bit my wiping out a fuck ton more neurons and making tons of them dormant for a while with it. The titles kind of a pun I guess, because it's a "rectified" spirit. I mentioned this god tier nectar of a drink in this thread some weeks ago:
My Solution to Inceldom (or rather dealing with it) FUCK
Best way to deal with inceldom is to drink myself into an absolute pit with stuff like this. Makes mouth nice and warm. Evidently i'm making good use of the information I got from the hospital 2 weeks ago about my organs starting to get all shitty. Another couple of bottles of this should give...
incels.is
As a result I figure I have an out to make this next week a little bit better than the last. Basically I'm going to just load myself up with fucking copium and cope like fuck. It only ever makes a small bit of difference. Went to the shops not too long ago today and stocked up on more alcohol and food. I think later today or tomorrow i'll start making a huge, slow cooked beef stew. Food is good cope and I guess its fitting due to the winter. So that's it I guess, shitty thread conclusion. I'm going to just try and feel a bit better than I do right fucking now by getting split-dimensionally wasted and heartyfoodmaxxing. I hope you too, all have a good day regardless though.
