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What‘s up, naturally woke up naturally at 5am today, weirdly enough, fully awake, only had 3-4h of sleep
Whenever I‘m sleep deprived or in a anomalous condition (fever, excessively stressed etc) I become super psychotic
Wh0 gives a shit, whatever going on with the story
Waking up super early is one of the best feelings for me; giving the stars a goodnight kiss as the birds begin to sing to our beloved sun
4x “W“ as a initial letter lollll
Didn’t think much of it as my body itself decided how much rest it required, I didn’t artificially disrupt the resting-process
I went to the farmers market to get som raw milk as it kicked in, now it gets interesting:
Few premises of my thoughts:
Nature is by default amoral and contingent.
Sounds abstract and all but especially today it was truly disturbing9
Life exists, neither is the existence of life a logical requirement nor an impossibility, that’s contingency.
Nature is amoral, it is beyond good and evil
lol)
Whatever suffering, torture happens; there is no heroic intervention, no moral retrospective or reflection and the resulting improvement of the future
We as humans are all alone with this thought, tragic right?
As usual, I uncontrollably spiraled into existential nightmares and horrific “what if‘s“
One of those what if‘s of today was:
What if, after life, for whatever reason, follows eternal suffering?
It fits both criterias. It is both not impossible nor implicated, and beyond any moral intervention.
Specifically, this means:
After life, you will suffer excruciating pain. It’s just how it is, we don’t know the reason. Additionally, there is no one coming to save you, not a categorical imperative enforcing justice, happiness and wealth.
How does that sound?
I‘m very well aware it is reasonable to argue that with death, pain receptors lose functionality.
Though whoever experienced extreme paranoia before knows that your brain, in those situations, doesn’t give a single fuck about logic, reasonability, probability.
During psychosis, you’re trapped inside your head. You’re in a world which only you can access and it is the most frightening and disturbing thing I ever experience
Hope this helps, taking a bath now thanks for reading
Whenever I‘m sleep deprived or in a anomalous condition (fever, excessively stressed etc) I become super psychotic
Wh0 gives a shit, whatever going on with the story
Waking up super early is one of the best feelings for me; giving the stars a goodnight kiss as the birds begin to sing to our beloved sun
4x “W“ as a initial letter lollll
Didn’t think much of it as my body itself decided how much rest it required, I didn’t artificially disrupt the resting-process
I went to the farmers market to get som raw milk as it kicked in, now it gets interesting:
Few premises of my thoughts:
Nature is by default amoral and contingent.
Sounds abstract and all but especially today it was truly disturbing9
Life exists, neither is the existence of life a logical requirement nor an impossibility, that’s contingency.
Nature is amoral, it is beyond good and evil
lol)Whatever suffering, torture happens; there is no heroic intervention, no moral retrospective or reflection and the resulting improvement of the future
We as humans are all alone with this thought, tragic right?
As usual, I uncontrollably spiraled into existential nightmares and horrific “what if‘s“
One of those what if‘s of today was:
What if, after life, for whatever reason, follows eternal suffering?
It fits both criterias. It is both not impossible nor implicated, and beyond any moral intervention.
Specifically, this means:
After life, you will suffer excruciating pain. It’s just how it is, we don’t know the reason. Additionally, there is no one coming to save you, not a categorical imperative enforcing justice, happiness and wealth.
How does that sound?
I‘m very well aware it is reasonable to argue that with death, pain receptors lose functionality.
Though whoever experienced extreme paranoia before knows that your brain, in those situations, doesn’t give a single fuck about logic, reasonability, probability.
During psychosis, you’re trapped inside your head. You’re in a world which only you can access and it is the most frightening and disturbing thing I ever experience
Hope this helps, taking a bath now thanks for reading
