Am i mentalcel/autistic?

[TheEntireCircus0]

I googled this shit but i'm not sure, i need the opinion of my brocels, im gonna share some highlight form my past

i was left alone when i was 7, mother went to another country for work, father went to another city for work and he would come home once every 2 weeks
parents divorced when i was 9, mother was packing her bags and threw some socks at me saying she doesnt love me and my father anymore (my father was a drunkard cheating cunt)
in 6th grade they asked us what we want to do when growing up, told them i want to be a hitman, i found years later they called my grandmother to school and she cried and told them i was always alone
i was also bullied in school from 5th grade till 11th grade (all my bullies finished school) so 12th grade was nice, i was the smartest kid in the class/school
i was watching aneme and my older foid cousin heard me practicing my evil laugh
i always stayed home bc of my severe acne
i spoke with another foid cousin 2 years ago and she told me shes proud that im in college and she didnt expected me to do anything in life and she thought i was a failure
i was drunkmaxxing with my uncle (love the guy) and he told me that he's proud and that not many would be able to go through what i went without going insane

i always thought i'm normal, but not anymore, i believe this things fucked with my head
am i a mentalcel/autist?

additional info
im rn staying with my mom till january, i dont care about what she did, i don't love any of my parents, im doing what im doing for my own gains, she and my step father are on the richer side so im just draining income from them

 

[Deleted member 27249]

How old are you? You remind me of johnwickcel

 

[TheEntireCircus0]

How old are you? You remind me of johnwickcel

23

 

[PHp]

all of us are mentalcels in some level, you just can't come out normal from years of getting treated like scum everywhere

 

[Mecoja]

If you are ugly you're not mentalcel.Dont think bad life prevented you from having as gf, i literally saw guys living in the dumpster and they still have a girlfriend

 

[Deleted member 7448]

If you are ugly youre not mentalcel.

I take objection to that, I'm definitely a mentalcel and I consider myself ugly too. Idk how ugly I was 10 years ago, although girls didn't like me at all, but by now I am definitely ugly. Baldness in an by itself ensures I'm ugly. I still have acne in my mid 20s, my teeth are all fucked up, I have thick glasses, framecel, fat but I was also anorexic skinny in highschool and I looked worse so I just stopped giving a shit and became fat again.

 

[Ethnicaspiecel]

There are many good website tests and and youtube videos made to determine whether you are “on spectrum”. There are many well recognizable specific autism characteristics. It wouldn’t be a challenge to diagnose yourself in my opinion

 

[Mecoja]

I take objection to that, I'm definitely a mentalcel and I consider myself ugly too. Idk how ugly I was 10 years ago, although girls didn't like me at all, but by now I am definitely ugly. Baldness in an by itself ensures I'm ugly. I still have acne in my mid 20s, my teeth are all fucked up, I have thick glasses, framecel, fat but I was also anorexic skinny in highschool and I looked worse so I just stopped giving a shit and became fat again.

I wanted to say if someone is ugly mental part is not that important, my dad fucked up my teen years and mentally i'm similar to you, i can relate to many of your post. I blamed my dad why i never had a girlfriend butt i know many people who live in inhuman condition and still manage to have healthy relationships with girls.

 

[coldmachinery]

Autism is a meme for the most part until it kills your motor skills and ability. If you can physically memorize a task and turn your brain off at work or school to get through the day, to me you have meme autism. If you sometimes have a break down or are socially awkward but got good grades, chances are it's meme autism. But this is my own criteria, others might disagree.

 

[Uglymuggly]

all of us are mentalcels in some level, you just can't come out normal from years of getting treated like scum everywhere

Tbh but at the end of the day it’s my face

 

[TheEntireCircus0]

If you are ugly you're not mentalcel.Dont think bad life prevented you from having as gf, i literally saw guys living in the dumpster and they still have a girlfriend

im not even sure if im 5/10 or 3/10, i have asymmetical eyes, one is bigger/more open, i'm 5'5.7 idk i almost had a gf in 12th grade

I take objection to that, I'm definitely a mentalcel and I consider myself ugly too. Idk how ugly I was 10 years ago, although girls didn't like me at all, but by now I am definitely ugly. Baldness in an by itself ensures I'm ugly. I still have acne in my mid 20s, my teeth are all fucked up, I have thick glasses, framecel, fat but I was also anorexic skinny in highschool and I looked worse so I just stopped giving a shit and became fat again.

i too have bad eyesight i also still have acne and acne scars, i can feel you

 

[Mecoja]

im not even sure if im 5/10 or 3/10, i have asymmetical eyes, one is bigger/more open, i'm 5'5.7 idk i almost had a gf in 12th grade

I also have asymmetrical eyes, im just trying to be real guys i knew both below 5'7 5/10 had few girlfriends during high school and got married around 30, i had no chance so that automatically means i'm far from 5/10 maybe 3/10. 1 guy who looks better than both of those 2 guys is KHHV but i personally saw him rejecting girls because they are not slim enough or young enough so he is a standardcel. In the end doesn't really matter you either have chance or you don't.

 

[TheEntireCircus0]

I also have asymmetrical eyes, im just trying to be real guys i knew both below 5'7 5/10 had few girlfriends during high school and got married around 30, i had no chance so that automatically means i'm far from 5/10 maybe 3/10. 1 guy who looks better than both of those 2 guys is KHHV but i personally saw him rejecting girls because they are not slim enough or young enough so he is a standardcel. In the end doesn't really matter you either have chance or you don't.

i know guys with worse bone structure than me, same height with gfs but they have clean faces and good childhoods
i believe if it wasnt for for my shit upbringing maybe i could have had a gf, but im still not sure cus my acne was really fucking severe, i could only sleep with my face up, but im better now, maybe i'll even ascend, idk im gonna cope and hope till 25

 

[Mecoja]

i know guys with worse bone structure than me, same height with gfs but they have clean faces and good childhoods
i believe if it wasnt for for my shit upbringing maybe i could have had a gf, but im still not sure cus my acne was really fucking severe, i could only sleep with my face up, but im better now, maybe i'll even ascend, idk im gonna cope and hope till 25

It cant hurt you to try, when you run out of option you will know its over. I wish you luck.

 

[TheEntireCircus0]

It cant hurt you to try, when you run out of option you will know its over. I wish you luck.

thanks bro, it's nice when someone understands you and deosnt go retarded with blupill advice, i wish you good luck too, but it might be too late
can you make new friends and social groups as a wizardcel? bc i find hard even in my current situation and im young and should have an easier time

some advice for a youger cel, things you regret not doing when you were younger?

 

[Personalityinkwell]

all of us are mentalcels in some level, you just can't come out normal from years of getting treated like scum everywhere

Tbh but at the end of the day it’s my face

same, my mental problems stem back to my shit looks in my developmental years

 

[Mecoja]

thanks bro, it's nice when someone understands you and deosnt go retarded with blupill advice, i wish you good luck too, but it might be too late
can you make new friends and social groups as a wizardcel? bc i find hard even in my current situation and im young and should have an easier time

some advice for a youger cel, things you regret not doing when you were younger?

I dunno, past high school is very hard making contacts with people unless you work at a place with alot of people. What i regret is why i didn't had lower standards, why i didn't try harder to have social circle and why i wasnt more sexualy agressive you know show more advance toward females, i was way to passive, i doubt it would change anything but atleast i would know i have tried while i could.

 

[Uglymuggly]

same, my mental problems stem back to my shit looks in my developmental years

Yea. We are entitled to sex too. People who say we aren’t are Jews in my eyes.

 

[Benj-amin]

I googled this shit but i'm not sure, i need the opinion of my brocels, im gonna share some highlight form my past

i was left alone when i was 7, mother went to another country for work, father went to another city for work and he would come home once every 2 weeks
parents divorced when i was 9, mother was packing her bags and threw some socks at me saying she doesnt love me and my father anymore (my father was a drunkard cheating cunt)
in 6th grade they asked us what we want to do when growing up, told them i want to be a hitman, i found years later they called my grandmother to school and she cried and told them i was always alone
i was also bullied in school from 5th grade till 11th grade (all my bullies finished school) so 12th grade was nice, i was the smartest kid in the class/school
i was watching aneme and my older foid cousin heard me practicing my evil laugh
i always stayed home bc of my severe acne
i spoke with another foid cousin 2 years ago and she told me shes proud that im in college and she didnt expected me to do anything in life and she thought i was a failure
i was drunkmaxxing with my uncle (love the guy) and he told me that he's proud and that not many would be able to go through what i went without going insane

i always thought i'm normal, but not anymore, i believe this things fucked with my head
am i a mentalcel/autist?

additional info
im rn staying with my mom till january, i dont care about what she did, i don't love any of my parents, im doing what im doing for my own gains, she and my step father are on the richer side so im just draining income from them

You are a GREYcel, not an Autist.

If you think you are Autistic, then get diagnosed, first. Like I have.

I get tired of fools thinking claiming Autism when they are nothing of the sort.
You may just have another Mental disorder.

 

[TheEntireCircus0]

You are a GREYcel, not an Autist.

If you think you are Autistic, then get diagnosed, first. Like I have.

I get tired of fools thinking claiming Autism when they are nothing of the sort.

i wasnt claiming autism, i was curios if i could be, thanks for clarifying

You may just have another Mental disorder.

yes, maybe, i mean all those experiences must have left their print on me

I dunno, past high school is very hard making contacts with people unless you work at a place with alot of people. What i regret is why i didn't had lower standards, why i didn't try harder to have social circle and why i wasnt more sexualy agressive you know show more advance toward females, i was way to passive, i doubt it would change anything but atleast i would know i have tried while i could.

sounds like some good advice, i am too passive, im hoping gymmaxxing will help me be more assertive and aggresive