
Pareg
Two worlds apart: theirs and ours.
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I really wish that you will succeed. It's not easy to control your biological instinct that will try its best to prevent you from killing yourself.This is not a bullshit suicide threat. I'm more serious now than I ever was.
I'm not gonna go into detail about my life much though I could later. I've laid out the basics. I'm a 5'8" lanklet, narrow shoulders, etc. I was previously overweight and then obese. Life has been hell and still is. There's nowhere for me to go.
At the moment, I feel helpless. It's that feeling you get when something painful or anxiety-inducing is about to happen like a presentation or a vaccination as a child. And of course, there's nothing you can do about it. I am valueless because of factors beyond my control. I'm also extremely bored with life. Extreme anehdonia has set in and nothing gives me pleasure anymore. I don't care about things I used to care about like politics, economics, etc. It's all meaningless for the genetically disadvantaged. Everyone wants us diminished in every way until we're ash.
I figure since these are my last months, I could talk about my life, my interests, previous hopes, experiences (blackpilled), etc. I wouldn't mind maybe chatting with some of you who are interested personally. It's nice to have some company with people like myself before I die.
Since a lot of people don't seem to go through with their suicide threats, I'll prove to you that I'm taking steps necessary to commit suicide. At the moment, I'm trying to get hold of a firearm. If that fails, I'll find some other way.
This was coming eventually. What a tragedy this all is.
Try as much as you still can.
You do not deserve to handle all of this pain, nor do any of us.
You have my support. Good luck and may you rest in peace.