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I can literally do anything and it will still not work.
I can read books to prepare myself for it, watch hours of tutorials and I still fail. Even at completely simple tasks. My entire life I just wished I would be good in one thing I like. But no. I wanted to keep some plants, instantly got an mildew infection. Read almost everything about them available online and in the literature, still a failure. Even failed with setting up the entire set-up despite making a plan beforehand.
And the same thing with other "hobbies", animal watching - failed, becoming better in sport - failed (cannot do the movements due to a motoric disorder, after thinking I was doing it alright someone came and just said you are completely wrong - after two years, no interest in doing that shit anymore) and I always prepare myself and still nothing works. My friends meanwhile: Read nothing, prepare nothing, still succeed in what they were trying, even when it's a spontaneous decision made in a few seconds.
This is why I have no morals whatsoever nowadays, now I try to cheat as much as possible to get ahead - and (almost) everything else is of no importance to me. Since the last few months I have abandoned all morals and standards I once adhered to. "Cheating" is for me not morally wrong in the slighest anymore, what is intelligence/strength than a cheat code for life?
And cheating is nothing more than using a chemical or other tool to get the same gifts others were born with; with steroids you just get the Testo others were born with, with Ritalin you just get what those with higher intelligence and no attention disorders always had.
Fairness is a lie in a world where people are born with varying traits. Your trying and work ethic doesn't matter, what matters in the end is the result and all people claim the opposite until they see that the results of others are subpar and then they look down onto them while pacifying them in the next moments in their condescending compassion and with their empty platitudes they don't even really believe in.
Intelligence, strength, beauty are all real-life cheat codes based on genetics, but when somebody acquires them via surgery/chemicals artificially it is called cheating which is frowned upon, fuck this sick world that wants to keep us in our genetic caste via (often selectively applied) morals, the entire premise of this world in the form of the equality among people is a mess, even if money/ressources were equally distributed an equality of chances still wouldn't exist due to simple genetics, jealousy and contempt would still exist, but even more based on genetics (like looks/intelligence/able-bodied-ness) due to equality of the environment.
Equality itself is a lie and morals are something we need to free us from, nowadays morals are a shackle, something that doesn't benefit, but enslaves us by keeping us pacified and content. The only moral we should follow is as follows: "Good is what benefits us, bad is what hurts us - and what benefits/hurts us is entirely subjectively defined!"
I can read books to prepare myself for it, watch hours of tutorials and I still fail. Even at completely simple tasks. My entire life I just wished I would be good in one thing I like. But no. I wanted to keep some plants, instantly got an mildew infection. Read almost everything about them available online and in the literature, still a failure. Even failed with setting up the entire set-up despite making a plan beforehand.
And the same thing with other "hobbies", animal watching - failed, becoming better in sport - failed (cannot do the movements due to a motoric disorder, after thinking I was doing it alright someone came and just said you are completely wrong - after two years, no interest in doing that shit anymore) and I always prepare myself and still nothing works. My friends meanwhile: Read nothing, prepare nothing, still succeed in what they were trying, even when it's a spontaneous decision made in a few seconds.
This is why I have no morals whatsoever nowadays, now I try to cheat as much as possible to get ahead - and (almost) everything else is of no importance to me. Since the last few months I have abandoned all morals and standards I once adhered to. "Cheating" is for me not morally wrong in the slighest anymore, what is intelligence/strength than a cheat code for life?
And cheating is nothing more than using a chemical or other tool to get the same gifts others were born with; with steroids you just get the Testo others were born with, with Ritalin you just get what those with higher intelligence and no attention disorders always had.
Fairness is a lie in a world where people are born with varying traits. Your trying and work ethic doesn't matter, what matters in the end is the result and all people claim the opposite until they see that the results of others are subpar and then they look down onto them while pacifying them in the next moments in their condescending compassion and with their empty platitudes they don't even really believe in.
Intelligence, strength, beauty are all real-life cheat codes based on genetics, but when somebody acquires them via surgery/chemicals artificially it is called cheating which is frowned upon, fuck this sick world that wants to keep us in our genetic caste via (often selectively applied) morals, the entire premise of this world in the form of the equality among people is a mess, even if money/ressources were equally distributed an equality of chances still wouldn't exist due to simple genetics, jealousy and contempt would still exist, but even more based on genetics (like looks/intelligence/able-bodied-ness) due to equality of the environment.
Equality itself is a lie and morals are something we need to free us from, nowadays morals are a shackle, something that doesn't benefit, but enslaves us by keeping us pacified and content. The only moral we should follow is as follows: "Good is what benefits us, bad is what hurts us - and what benefits/hurts us is entirely subjectively defined!"
