Venting I tried (failed) to turn my life around. Still miserable, maybe even more than before.

[Canuckincel]

I haven’t been posting here for the last 6 months or so, I tried going back to school to maybe learn something useful to get a future career. How naive I was. In the first two weeks it did go pretty well, I did get along with my few normie classmates. But unfortunately my socially incapable personality was more than apparent and things started to go downhill. I started withdrawing from any social interaction and they also withdrew from me, going right back to being an outcast as I always was. But yes things got even worse with constant feelings of worthlessness, isolation. Now just about everyone grind my fucking gears especially those loud obnoxious morons from the other classrooms. Why do they have to be so fucking obnoxious all the time, I have to sit in my car during lunch time just to have a few minutes of peace before going back to tedious pointless work that gets me nowhere. And yes my subhuman autistic brain cannot function properly to even pass a fucking exam even though I studied for MONTHS.
The only times when I’m not wishing for death is when I’m home doing pretty much nothing.

Things have gotten so bad lately that I started self harming to just get some sort of release.
And I’m considering roping (probably not gonna happen but things can only get so much worse before I snap)

I just wanted to vent here because no one else gives a shit (and you probably don’t) but maybe people that are just as or even more miserable than I am can relate.

I don’t really care that much about finding a foid, I just don’t want to be miserable anymore.

 

[SoulMogged]

I've tried multiple times to "turn my life around". I don't even know what that means for me anymore. There's no career I actually want even if I could get one. Wagecucking sucks, even if you are in a "cushy" office job. For me now, a good life means NEETmaxxing, welfaremaxxing and hopefully one day being able to afford a shack in the middle of a field far away from normalfags and foids alike.

But yes, I get it man, life sucks. God is not real. What are you studying, out of interest?

 

[Canuckincel]

I've tried multiple times to "turn my life around". I don't even know what that means for me anymore. There's no career I actually want even if I could get one. Wagecucking sucks, even if you are in a "cushy" office job. For me now, a good life means NEETmaxxing, welfaremaxxing and hopefully one day being able to afford a shack in the middle of a field far away from normalfags and foids alike.

But yes, I get it man, life sucks. God is not real. What are you studying, out of interest?

Car parts and systems. Found it interesting, and it can be when there’s no exam attached to it

 

[supremeincel06]

I haven’t been posting here for the last 6 months or so, I tried going back to school to maybe learn something useful to get a future career. How naive I was. In the first two weeks it did go pretty well, I did get along with my few normie classmates. But unfortunately my socially incapable personality was more than apparent and things started to go downhill. I started withdrawing from any social interaction and they also withdrew from me, going right back to being an outcast as I always was. But yes things got even worse with constant feelings of worthlessness, isolation. Now just about everyone grind my fucking gears especially those loud obnoxious morons from the other classrooms. Why do they have to be so fucking obnoxious all the time, I have to sit in my car during lunch time just to have a few minutes of peace before going back to tedious pointless work that gets me nowhere. And yes my subhuman autistic brain cannot function properly to even pass a fucking exam even though I studied for MONTHS.
The only times when I’m not wishing for death is when I’m home doing pretty much nothing.

Things have gotten so bad lately that I started self harming to just get some sort of release.
And I’m considering roping (probably not gonna happen but things can only get so much worse before I snap)

I just wanted to vent here because no one else gives a shit (and you probably don’t) but maybe people that are just as or even more miserable than I am can relate.

I don’t really care that much about finding a foid, I just don’t want to be miserable anymore.

fuckkk brooo this is so real bro i feel your pain so much i will give you a follow for that

 

[supremeincel06]

fuckkk brooo this is so real bro i feel your pain so much i will give you a follow for that

 

[SubhumanOldcel]

How naive I was.

Very relatable.

 

[CHRICOLL]

The amount of times i tried to fit in. One time on a new school i tried to do a party, everybody said they were going to come just to collectively cancel on the day of the party. Then on the evening they threw a party on their own and sent me photos and videos insulting me and laughing at me.

 

[Canuckincel]

The amount of times i tried to fit in. One time on a new school i tried to do a party, everybody said they were going to come just to collectively cancel on the day of the party. Then on the evening they threw a party on their own and sent me photos and videos insulting me and laughing at me.

Brutal.

How cruel can normies be.

 

[CHRICOLL]

Brutal.

How cruel can normies be.

Still think about it to this day. I got bullied my whole life. Starting with kindergarden no one played with me. Everytime i tried people and me got along for a week and then they distanced from me.

 

[INVERTER]

The amount of times i tried to fit in. One time on a new school i tried to do a party, everybody said they were going to come just to collectively cancel on the day of the party. Then on the evening they threw a party on their own and sent me photos and videos insulting me and laughing at me.

Brutal. Reminds me when a friend of mine was visiting from out of state invited me and a bunch of people to play paintball. When I got there no one was there and they had all cancelled

 

[CHRICOLL]

Brutal. Reminds me when a friend of mine was visiting from out of state invited me and a bunch of people to play paintball. When I got there no one was there and they had all cancelled

Well the thing is if it was on purporse or not