tbh I'd covet even negative attention at this point just to have a girl take interest in me
OP your sister is approaching you to initiative 1-on-1 conversations with you.
Even though these conversations are critical, this seems to me like she is expressing interest in you and conveying concern about your wellbeing in a very tsundere fashion.
In what context? AnimeCel you are not really painting a clear picture of how these conversations progressed.
I don't expect you to memorize conversations but you can surely paraphrase something roughly along the lines of what you said immediately before this, what she said you were responding to, etc.
What were you attempting to hit her with?
Which part of her were you trying to hit?
That is an understandable fearful reaction OP.
You are probably larger and stronger than her, and being rushed at by a larger and stronger person is terrifying.
Even though as a male I am more resistant to crying because of my larger tear ducts (and the psychological gender conditioning to be stoic) I find it plausible I would also cry if a large man lunged at me as if to attack me.
This makes me feel empathy for your sister, who feared physical assault and injury in response to your gesture.
As above - if someone tried to intimidate me by lunging at me, I might also cry, and I would also likely feel anger that would prompt me to erect a barricade promptly in your path, such as slammin ga door.
I think you will understand if you reread what you posted - you "ran towards her to hit her".
That is why she is crying.
People fear being hit, especially if they are vulnerable and the person coming to hit them is relatively physically imposing.
How would this be possible if you pass-word lock your cellphone?
You do not know that OP.
Perhaps she cares about your privacy somewhat, but she has other priorities which seem more important to her than respecting your privcay.
In what context?
Borrowing your phone to call her friends?
Again - password your phone and this should be impossible.
Or did she violate your privacy in some other context, like watching you undress?
People always have reasons for what they do, Animecel.
People never kick or scratch others "for no reason".
She of course has a 'reason' she did these things.
The question here is whether or not that reason is justifiable.
For us to judge that, I think you need to tell us stories of these instances where your sister kicked you in your testicles and scratched your face.
Please explain in detail like what both of you were doing, saying, etc.
Don't spare details either, like I need to know if this was a toe-kick, heel-kick, shin-kick or knee ... or which part of your face she scratched and the vectors of motion in which she scratched you.
Assuming these things actually happened to you, those assaults on your person should be burned into your memory and you should be able to explain in detail how it happened to you.
You need to do this if you want me to take you seriously as a victim OP
There is no need to say this.
Males (even the majority of the abusive ones) are always almost always holding back the full force of their physical combat ability when it comes to interpersonal conflicts with females.
We tend to be physically more powerful and control the application of that power by being gentle.
It is so prevalent we don't even need to say it.
You're not educating anybody and you're not special for doing so.
It is the nature of man to be gentle in applying his strength around females.
What you need to perceive here OP is that you did hurt her emotionally.
Even though you did not physically strike her, you put that fear into her, and it is traumatizing.
Your tsundere imouto calling you a weak pussy is not grounds to LARP like you're about to hurt her.
Perhaps your line of thinking is "I'll show I'm not a complete doormat by making to attack her".
It's an understandable reflexive way to think when you feel attacked and criticized.
Ultimately though - does hitting a girl for saying something mean to you mean a man is strong?
It is not an amazing accomplishment of athleticism to assault a woman.
I'm sure if I sucker-punched her I could even KO an MMA superstaer like Ronda Rousey.
Women (even athletic ones) just naturally have thinner skulls and they are easy to injure.
So being able to do so would not prove anything about one's strength as a man when measured against other men.
It's probably harder to do a single pushup than it is to throw a punch that knocks out a girl.
If your sister calls her a weak pussy your
response should be "I will show you how strong I am by doing pushups, I bet you I could even do them with your chub weighing me down"
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If you can do 20 pushups with your sister sitting/lying on your back then she will perceive you as a strong male and she will admire your strength.
I would not advice asking her to touch you directly (at first) but instead talk about how you want to balance a weight plate on your back but it keeps falling off, so ask her to step on the weight plate to help keep it in place. Sort of like what I've highlighted in red but with a weight plate as a barrier so it doesn't feel too weird-skinship to her.
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Hopefully she doesn't think of putting the weight plate into a knapsack - I'd say get yourself a super-wide 45lb olympic plate (
17 ½ inches diameter) which would be too large to fit
THIS how you take the wind out of her sales as a gentleman applying his strength in a constructive way which could strengthen the relationship between you two, rather than damaging it.
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You want your sister to feel safe around you. Like you could carry her to safety if she trips and twists her ankle.
You should volunteer to give her a piggy-back ride as a means of demonstrating that you are a strong brother she can rely upon.
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If she refuses to accept a piggyback ride from you or sit on your back while you do pushups then you win the argument, because you can make huge claims about how strong you are and how she refuses because she doesn't want to acknowledge your strength.
If you are too weak to accomplish this then you should just let her win the argument.
Something like "sister, you are right, I am presently weak, and I want to become strong so I can carry you in your times of need. I hope I have the potential to improve myself so your shame in having me as your brother may lessen".
Then do pushups in front of her every time you see her (with the goal of getting strong enough to do them while she sits on your) saying "for youuuuuu" every time.
She will grow to admire your dedication and willpower at improving yourself.
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Maybe she will be inspired to improve herself too and you can discuss calisthenics togethr as your sibling hobby. You can help her get swole and bond in skinship.
I empathize with you, I hated both being bullied and being mocked for being bullied, which is itself another form of bullying.
With your precious imouto though, I think deep down she is scared of the world and trying to feel strong.
She may do that by bullying you, but also I think deep down she wants her brother to become strong so he can protect her.
She wants you to strengthen your body and your willpower so she can depend on you, and if she sees you in a state where you are not strong, or not on the path towards becoming strong, she will desperately try to rectify that situation.
Her course may not be the wisest, but it is a strategy many use when they don't know how to nurture with firmness. She is not, after all, suited to be your parent, she is your sibling, a confused peer reaching out into the void of life seeking meaning.
You must blaze this trail of meaning into her life with the force of your pecs by impressing her with the pushups your tricep meat can accomplish.
Your daily rituals clearly annoy her as inadequate, so ask if she can help you become stronger by making your pushups more difficult.
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believe in yourself OP you will become swole ogre-maxed big bro your imouto will be grow to begruggingly admire when you princess-carry her in her time of need
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