Venting ALL THOSE TESTS AND NOTHING!!!!

[Deta97]

As of now, I have no money, no job, and am living with my parents.

I indeed am seeking for one, but I don't even know what I want to do, and I'd much rather die than work a meaningless job.

Worse, I'm without a driver's license, since I've failed my road test (AGAIN), and I'm going to have to wait a month, which I might fail again since I likely won't get enough practice. No car available, and parents are always working. And provided I get accepted into driver's education, I'll only get three hours. And yeah, if I fail, the doors will remain closed, and I'll be stuck with limited options.

Things are looking pretty bleak, and I find myself wondering if there's any hope for me, or if this is just it for me.

I'm pretty angry about it, since I'm kinda alone in this; there's no one I can talk to who will understand me.

But perhaps there's something to it; maybe I can use that to my advantage and weed out the fake and probable ascend against all odds. But as of now, this feels like nothing more than a fucking cope.

Why do I bother doing anything at this point? Why do I continue to fight, when there's nothing to be gained?!

If only my parents didn't work alternating shifts. If only I had the money and resources. How great it would be to fucking kill myself.

Because I truly feel as though I'm doomed for failure. But maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I'm giving up too early.

Its just that all this uncertainty is pissing me the fuck off!

WHO AM I, AND WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?! WHAT DO I EVEN WANT TO DO?!!


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[Cuckoja]

We are nothing brother. Best we can is surviving in the least shitty way, for no reason at all.

 

[anon65]

It sounds cucked but maybe you could ride a bike to a job nearby.

If you've never worked, you should know that (at least) your first job will be completely pointless and stupid, and just used as a stepping stone to a higher paying job in the future. Nobody works one job from 18 until retirement.

 

[Poopless One]

Soon as I saw the title I knew exactly what you were referencing...

I was not disappointed.

That sucks btw. Life is shit.

 

[Deta97]

It sounds cucked but maybe you could ride a bike to a job nearby.

If you've never worked, you should know that (at least) your first job will be completely pointless and stupid, and just used as a stepping stone to a higher paying job in the future. Nobody works one job from 18 until retirement.

It's feasible until winter time (it gets as low as -20°F). And I did apply to a few nearby, but... I'm unsure I'm even gonna get hired. The one down the street requires me to do training in another city, and so on.

I've worked before, and my first one was miserable; couldn't function until after I got fired after almost 3 years of working there.

And though my second one was almost like heaven, but after 2 years, I just couldn't keep up the pace, and my days were numbered.

I appreciate your input though.

 

[Deta97]

Soon as I saw the title I knew exactly what you were referencing...

I was not disappointed.

That sucks btw. Life is shit.

Lol...

 

[Animecel2D]

It is over