when i'm drinking seriously i drink over 20 drinks a day, everyday of the week. i've been doing this for many years now and death is close and i can feel it coming. sometimes my limbs go numb mostly my left arm, my body temperature fluctuates wildly so i'm either sweating or freezing, i almost puke daily and get nasty shits, and my heart fluctuates so it feels like it's going to either stop beating altogether or go into overdrive and explode, but i keep doing it anyway. alcohol withdrawal is pretty brutal too and i usually need to stay in bed for an entire day or two and wait a week or two to come back to normal completely.
i've gone sober for months several times and physically i end up feeling great and my life is so productive during those times, but mentally i feel so miserable. so it's a trade off of whether i want to feel good physically or mentally.
my favorite part about drinking is how it helps me process the thoughts in my mind. i'm more brazen, more philosophical, social interaction becomes a breeze, so many benefits on that side of it. life just feels more tolerable even if it comes with so many physical downsides. hell when i wake up after i blackout i'm extremely horny and masturbating is so fucking easy, not sure what that's about, but i really enjoy the feeling of being insanely horny.
my retarded advice to others of course is never fucking do it. it will probably ruin your life and cause more problems than it solves.