Venting Agepill is getting on my nerves

[packardD]

I am nearing 20 and although it is not nearly as bad as some other people have it here, I am afraid of what is to come… you see when I turned 19 in April 2024 I „promised“ myself I will try to change. I promised I will try to get rid of social anxiety, accept myself, but 8 months (or how many is that?) have passed and … nothing. Absolutely nothing has changed for me, in fact, it has gotten much much worse mentally. Just like almost a year ago all I do is play video games that I don’t even enjoy anymore, and eat junk food. I still find strength to workout every once in a while though. I was so close to starting a Jewish antidepressant medication course (3mg cariprazine) but I declined. I am so afraid of my future. I feel like I am existing, not living. It certainly doesn’t get better with age

 

[Hatred]

I'm the same age as you and I wish I could turn back the clock with the knowledge I have now so I would try to ascend in teen years

 

[ldargoblin]

You have a couple of prime years left, and then the wageslave, npc life begins, which will only add more stress. So preparing yourself mentally is a really good idea.