Afraid of literally every exchange with strangers.

[anon]

I can't even go shopping or answer a phone call without shitting my pants, trembling like a bitch and overthinking every little exchange I have with strangers. I'm a pathetic, autistic waste of oxygen.

I don't understand why I'm like this. I'm 31 and afraid of buying ice cream because of weird insecurities and lack of social skills. I don't want the cashier to think I'm a fat little pussy who likes ice cream, like I'm some fat kid who shouldn't be eating junk food. I do have a fat baby face which makes it worse.

When I do buy junk food, I don't want to return to the same store because I'm afraid of what the cashier will think of my eating habits. "Buying ice cream two days in a row? What a faggot."
That's the kind of shit I think about, that's how pathetic and absolutely mindfucked I am.

I can't even buy alcohol because I have the worst babyface in the world. I don't want to embarrass myself because I know the cashier will ask for ID, and probably laugh or say something about my hilarious baby face (it's happened before.) I know I'd leave the store with alcohol, but at what cost to my already shattered psyche?
Now imagine what getting rejected or laughed at would do to my non-existent confidence.

 

[SilentShadow]

I have a young looking face but i rarely get asked for my ID when buying alcohol, however i always feel uncomfortable waiting in the line at the store because i have severe social anxiety.

 

[anon]

I have a young looking face but i rarely get asked for my ID when buying alcohol, however i always feel uncomfortable waiting in the line at the store because i have severe social anxiety.

Life shouldn't be like this. I shouldn't be afraid of basic social interactions. Mental wellbeing is just as if not more important than bones. I look like a weird faggot so I'm double fucked, but I often wonder how my life would have turned out if I hadn't been born with the tism and other mental issues.
I cope by thinking that a lot of my mental problems stem from my fucked up face which is probably true to an extent.

 

[UndeadDeadMan]

Whenever I get phone calls I know it's from either my neurotic mom or from telemarketing. My mouth gushes out venom but I swallow it all back because I'm a high inhib cuck.

 

[Renegade#1]

I can't even go shopping or answer a phone call without shitting my pants, trembling like a bitch and overthinking every little exchange I have with strangers. I'm a pathetic, autistic waste of oxygen.

Being a high inhib anxious man is a trucel trait

I don't understand why I'm like this

Most likely because you've had a lot of negative experiences with people growing up due to being ugly af like me

When I do buy junk food

Trucels eat junk food and rot in their basement

 

[anon]

Whenever I get phone calls I know it's from either my neurotic mom or from telemarketing. My mouth gushes out venom but I swallow it all back because I'm a high inhib cuck.

Calling people is actually much worse for me, I worded it wrong in my original post. I hate ordering pizza for example, or soliciting a service of any kind because I almost feel like a nuisance when I do it. Asking for help over the phone is the worst, like customer support and things of that nature.

Most likely because you've had a lot of negative experiences with people growing up due to being ugly af like me

This is how I cope. "I'm retarded because I'm ugly so things couldn't have been different for me. "

 

[Renegade#1]

Calling people is actually much worse for me,

Yeah,trucels have severe phone anxiety

 

[Renegade#1]

This is how I cope. "I'm retarded because I'm ugly so things couldn't have been different for me. "

It's the truth tho,the horn effect is brutal

 

[nihilum]

Are you neurodivergent?