
Incline
You’re one who has to choose to live. No one else.
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- Joined
- May 1, 2019
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How do I fucking lift myself out of this fucked up shit state. What the fuck do I do. I mean that's a rhetorical question nobody in this world can help me. It's just little old me, that's all I got that's all I ever had and that's all I'll get.
I am just so fucking tired of this compromise of existence. Either I wanna go out big and try to get this train called my life going or I want to blow my fucking head right open I fucking hate being stuck in the middle.
Worst of all. I just say I hate it but do I really? If I truly hated it I would have done something by now. Maybe I just got used to it. Used to living in fucking misery grasping at every temporary pleasure and cope I can get my hands on to pass another day.
I can't fucking take this shit. Days pass, months pass and years pass it's all the same shit. How the fuck do I force myself to change when the misery overwhelmed me to the point where I don't even want to do anything other than rotting all day till I die.
Holy shit I must either figure this shit out or just swallow my pride and blow my head open like my sig says because I can't go on like this much longer. I've been doing it for 25 years already.
I am just so fucking tired of this compromise of existence. Either I wanna go out big and try to get this train called my life going or I want to blow my fucking head right open I fucking hate being stuck in the middle.
Worst of all. I just say I hate it but do I really? If I truly hated it I would have done something by now. Maybe I just got used to it. Used to living in fucking misery grasping at every temporary pleasure and cope I can get my hands on to pass another day.
I can't fucking take this shit. Days pass, months pass and years pass it's all the same shit. How the fuck do I force myself to change when the misery overwhelmed me to the point where I don't even want to do anything other than rotting all day till I die.
Holy shit I must either figure this shit out or just swallow my pride and blow my head open like my sig says because I can't go on like this much longer. I've been doing it for 25 years already.