Venting A life of coping delusions

[Chinkbonics]

In both real life and on the internet, I put up this façade of being an all-knowing god who could do anything, to the point where I actually believed it myself--pretending that I was smart, clever, witty. Before I scorned society, I tried to improve my every characteristic by spending years working out, trying to speak to other people, meeting girls, etc. etc. I tried so fucking hard to fix my autism. I tried to help & please people to the point of kissing their asses. It's all a joke. Imagine feeling the need to self improve as a fucking teenager? In reality, I am a fraud. My brain has degenerated & rotted from an entire life of negative reinforcement. Despite having sperg sense, I've scored average to below average on intelligence tests. Even though I cheat, I'm still below the average in my class. I have little cognitive ability; I trip myself by simply standing still. I am consistently the only person in any group that misses meetings and assignments. I am a skeleton despite trying so fucking hard, and I've been sick my entire life. I'm mogged even on the internet, and the only thing I can do now is to pity myself & whine about life with posts like these. I'm sure many of you will be able to relate to at least some of this dumb shit. It's a joke.
First reply

 

[InMyCellInHell]

I tried so fucking hard to fix my autism. I tried to help & please people to the point of kissing their asses. It's all a joke. Imagine feeling the need to self improve as a fucking teenager? In reality, I am a fraud. My brain has degenerated & rotted from an entire life of negative reinforcement. Despite having sperg sense, I've scored average to below average on intelligence tests. I've been sick my entire life. I'm mogged even on the internet, and the only thing I can do now is to pity myself & whine about life with posts like these. I'm sure many of you will be able to relate to at least some of this dumb shit. It's a joke.

All of this I can relate to. I got good grades in school but it was all rote memorization and no actual learning so those grades mean shit. My life is a complete waste of time and nothing good will ever come from my existence. It hurts.

 

[Chinkbonics]

All of this I can relate to. I got good grades in school but it was all rote memorization and no actual learning so those grades mean shit. My life is a complete waste of time and nothing good will ever come from my existence. It hurts.

It's as if we're simply not made for the real world apart from childhood academia.

 

[Cuckoja]

I can relate, i never "started" adult life, im in my house all day all smart and analyze the world, people, social structures, political structures, dating and foids but in the end i know nothing, i dont know people and sure as hell i dont know how this fucked up world function. Im stupid and immature.

 

[Deleted member 29230]

I was in youre exact position buddy boyo then i discoverd .co it helped me and made me a sadandangrycel knowing i was cheated out of life and all its lies

 

[Chinkbonics]

I can relate, i never "started" adult life, im in my house all day all smart and analyze the world, people, social structures, political structures, dating and foids but in the end i know nothing, i dont know people and sure as hell i dont know how this fucked up world function. Im stupid and immature.

I feel like I'll forever be a child mentally. A while back I was talking about how real life was slipping away from my reach. Normies will have entire photo albums of their adventures and their achievements, and we, on the other hand, will die having left no trace.

I was in youre exact position buddy boyo then i discoverd .co it helped me and made me a sadandangrycel knowing i was cheated out of life and all its lies

Without copes, I don't know how I'd keep living.

 

[dirtykombatcel]

Life scammed the fuck out of us

 

[Deleted member 26032]

Whatever copes gets us through another day.

 

[Atavistic Autist]

Juvenile experimentation with narcissistic and codependent strategies invariably fails with the autist, who can neither maintain his sense of superiority in relation to others, nor find anybody with whom to closely attach to (not even abusive types, who themselves are repulsed by autistic behavior, since they fail to accurately predict it and thus cannot take advantage of it).

 

[WizardofSoda]

I feel like I'll forever be a child mentally. A while back I was talking about how real life was slipping away from my reach. Normies will have entire photo albums of their adventures and their achievements, and we, on the other hand, will die having left no trace.



Without copes, I don't know how I'd keep living.

Our memories always involve some sickening level of suffering.

 

[Failed Pullout]

In both real life and on the internet, I put up this façade of being an all-knowing god who could do anything, to the point where I actually believed it myself--pretending that I was smart, clever, witty. Before I scorned society, I tried to improve my every characteristic by spending years working out, trying to speak to other people, meeting girls, etc. etc. I tried so fucking hard to fix my autism. I tried to help & please people to the point of kissing their asses. It's all a joke. Imagine feeling the need to self improve as a fucking teenager? In reality, I am a fraud. My brain has degenerated & rotted from an entire life of negative reinforcement. Despite having sperg sense, I've scored average to below average on intelligence tests. Even though I cheat, I'm still below the average in my class. I have little cognitive ability; I trip myself by simply standing still. I am consistently the only person in any group that misses meetings and assignments. I am a skeleton despite trying so fucking hard, and I've been sick my entire life. I'm mogged even on the internet, and the only thing I can do now is to pity myself & whine about life with posts like these. I'm sure many of you will be able to relate to at least some of this dumb shit. It's a joke.
First reply

very relatable

 

[CRYSTAL METH]

that's the geniuenly sad reality of our lives here...