Venting a constant feeling of despair

[nackskott1]

Turning 21 in a month and I have nothing to show up for. KHHV, no friends, no job, cheating on all college exams/essays. I feel so bad for my mother for having such a fucked up failure of a son, she deserves so much more. I will never have a romantic relationship, I will never be able to have friends or a simple conversation with another person, i will never find fulfillment in a slave job, religion is the worst form of coping, and the worst of all i don't feel bad/sad about. I was born to die, there's nothing for me here. Everyday I wake up thinking of what could have been if I didn't spend all my life alone, all the fun I could have had, all of it denied because I was born autistic and ugly.

 

[nackskott1]

Mb for the formatting and unconcise writing. Just needed to throw it out there

 

[Caichan]

forget trying to focus on friends, focus on a job and finishing ur studies.

 

[Ringbearer]

I can relate. It's so hard when we're not like everyone else.

 

[I hate women]

forget trying to focus on friends, focus on a job and finishing ur studies.

 

[nackskott1]

forget trying to focus on friends, focus on a job and finishing ur studies.

Applying for internships everyday, always rejected lol

I can relate. It's so hard when we're not like everyone else.

The bullying fucked my head so hard, I'd kill to be a normal kid

 

[goop]

Nothing I've done has helped to quell those feelings of despair that you've described.

Turning 21 in a month and I have nothing to show up for. KHHV, no friends, no job, cheating on all college exams/essays

It's not the norm, but its becoming more common.

I feel so bad for my mother for having such a fucked up failure of a son, she deserves so much more.

My parents are ashamed of my existence.

I will never have a romantic relationship, I will never be able to have friends or a simple conversation with another person, i will never find fulfillment in a slave job, religion is the worst form of coping, and the worst of all i don't feel bad/sad about. I was born to die, there's nothing for me here. Everyday I wake up thinking of what could have been if I didn't spend all my life alone, all the fun I could have had, all of it denied because I was born autistic and ugly.

Literally me.

 

[RandomGuy]

Applying for internships everyday, always rejected lol

Much easier going into law enforcement like state corrections or ICE. Excellent pay, pension, brotherhood and a smorgasbord of other benefits.
Very difficult to get fired do to strong union representation. I really don’t recommend being a cop, but it’s the last resort. Better than joining the military and more stable/easier than slaving in the competitive toxic corporate work environment forever.

 

[nackskott1]

Nothing I've done has helped to quell those feelings of despair that you've described.

It's not the norm, but its becoming more common.

My parents are ashamed of my existence.

Literally me.

we together in loneliness brocel

Much easier going into law enforcement like state corrections or ICE. Excellent pay, pension, brotherhood and a smorgasbord of other benefits.
Very difficult to get fired do to strong union representation. I really don’t recommend being a cop, but it’s the last resort. Better than joining the military and more stable/easier than slaving in the competitive toxic corporate work environment forever.

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[NothingToShowFor]

Turning 21 in a month and I have nothing to show up for. KHHV, no friends, no job, cheating on all college exams/essays. I feel so bad for my mother for having such a fucked up failure of a son, she deserves so much more. I will never have a romantic relationship, I will never be able to have friends or a simple conversation with another person, i will never find fulfillment in a slave job, religion is the worst form of coping, and the worst of all i don't feel bad/sad about. I was born to die, there's nothing for me here. Everyday I wake up thinking of what could have been if I didn't spend all my life alone, all the fun I could have had, all of it denied because I was born autistic and ugly.

This is so fucking relatable, to every detail. U motivated me to make an account and vent about myself. Thanks for that.

 

[nackskott1]

This is so fucking relatable, to every detail. U motivated me to make an account and vent about myself. Thanks for that.

im sorry you in the same situation