Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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I don't try. I'm not a fakecel.
I do have plenty of mental issues, a lot of regret about things I've done, a past with so many awkward things that I cringe about 5 times a day thinking about the things I did, and I'm also afraid of running into people that used to know me because of the shit I've done.
I look like shit, and yes, I could improve if I tried, but it would take a lot of effort, and I have 0 energy or motivation, since I've been very depressed for a decade now.
I have no social skills since I spent 100% of my free time in front of a PC not even talking to people through the internet since I was like 9.
I haven't had a proper conversation in years.
I ruined my health with alcohol and not exercising a lot and eating like shit, now I have heart problems, pancreas problems, diabetes.
I'm fat, I'm almost bald, I destroyed my teeth, even the front ones when I was an alcoholic, now they're fixed but badly. I wear glasses. I have acne. I am ugly.
I'm from a poor country, my parents saved their entire lives, I went to study abroad. I became an alcoholic, spent all their money, dropped out, moved back to my shitty home country and got a useless degree.
I now have a shitty job getting the average wage for my country which is 200$ a month. Well, I did, now I'm unemployed for a while.
When I was an alcoholic I did a lot of things to regret and fought with my parents and said horrible things to them, now I still live with them at 25 and I'm embarrassed and sorry for everything I've done.
I'm not a fakecel, but I don't try either. Life and my mistakes and bad choices have beaten any will to try out of me, and I'm only 25.
I do have plenty of mental issues, a lot of regret about things I've done, a past with so many awkward things that I cringe about 5 times a day thinking about the things I did, and I'm also afraid of running into people that used to know me because of the shit I've done.
I look like shit, and yes, I could improve if I tried, but it would take a lot of effort, and I have 0 energy or motivation, since I've been very depressed for a decade now.
I have no social skills since I spent 100% of my free time in front of a PC not even talking to people through the internet since I was like 9.
I haven't had a proper conversation in years.
I ruined my health with alcohol and not exercising a lot and eating like shit, now I have heart problems, pancreas problems, diabetes.
I'm fat, I'm almost bald, I destroyed my teeth, even the front ones when I was an alcoholic, now they're fixed but badly. I wear glasses. I have acne. I am ugly.
I'm from a poor country, my parents saved their entire lives, I went to study abroad. I became an alcoholic, spent all their money, dropped out, moved back to my shitty home country and got a useless degree.
I now have a shitty job getting the average wage for my country which is 200$ a month. Well, I did, now I'm unemployed for a while.
When I was an alcoholic I did a lot of things to regret and fought with my parents and said horrible things to them, now I still live with them at 25 and I'm embarrassed and sorry for everything I've done.
I'm not a fakecel, but I don't try either. Life and my mistakes and bad choices have beaten any will to try out of me, and I'm only 25.