Life is interesting in that it keeps getting better and worse at the same time. I am deeper, more knowledgeable, have more depth to my energy, if that makes sense. Like, compared to now, I was much less conscious at the time. Much less aware of life and how things worked.
But at the same time, I was in A LOT FUCKING LESS PAIN BACK THEN! Even though it was unbearable for me at the time. I could also enjoy things much more in a sense, because the world was fresher and newer, and I wasn't numbed through years of social rejection.