Blackpill You remember more of the past than you do the present

[Sleepycell]

Ever since I accepted my inceldom in late 2019, I have no memories. I completely stopped going outside, and then COVID happened, which completely isolated me. At that point, I cannot remember anything before late 2019. All I have been doing since then is playing video games and watching anime. Nothing else. I quite literally have no memories from these last four years. I have been doing the same thing every day and rarely leaving my house. It honestly hurts to see my former classmates graduate and their families smiling and happy while I didn't even have a graduation. I just received my diploma in the mail as I did online school due to everyone in my house being immunocompromised. No joke, my dad legit almost died of COVID in 2020. He was placed on a ventilator and barely survived. Nowadays, all I do is reminisce on the past and all the brutal moments that have happened to me while the chads and stacies who brutally bullied me are happy and having the time of their lives. They're partying, going on vacations, and having fun, while I spend all day on the PC doing nothing. I hate that I will never get justice for my suffering. I can't wait to be six feet under. It's over for me my disgusting ugly piece of shit self should have never been born Im worthless garbage who deserves to be thrown in the trash .

 

[MongoloidJoe]

I remember back in COVID I was like the only Asian that refused the Vax and never wore a mask. And yes everything is the same nothing changes as a full time rotter. I pledge revenge and curse my fellow peers that out performed me back in school and uni days.

 

[IncelsNeverCry]

Same, but for me it was from 2017-2020 3 1/2 years, those years mean nothing to me, I was a true LDAR NEET in a prison cell, those years broke my mind and I still haven't recovered, probably never will, sometimes in my nightmares i'm still in that room and when I wake up I forget where I am and it takes me half a minute to realize that I am in my own apartment and at least not rotting anymore, my dreams often take place in school I haven't been in one in 6 almost 7 years the past is everything to me and the future and present is just dissapointment.

 

[Sanxuary]

Same, but for me it was from 2017-2020 3 1/2 years, those years mean nothing to me, I was a true LDAR NEET in a prison cell, those years broke my mind and I still haven't recovered, probably never will, sometimes in my nightmares i'm still in that room and when I wake up I forget where I am and it takes me half a minute to realize that I am in my own apartment and at least not rotting anymore, my dreams often take place in school I haven't been in one in 6 almost 7 years the past is everything to me and the future and present is just dissapointment.

Why in prison

 

[outcastgymcel23]

Yes

 

[PrototypeCel]

Ever since I accepted my inceldom in late 2019, I have no memories. I completely stopped going outside, and then COVID happened, which completely isolated me. At that point, I cannot remember anything before late 2019. All I have been doing since then is playing video games and watching anime. Nothing else. I quite literally have no memories from these last four years. I have been doing the same thing every day and rarely leaving my house. It honestly hurts to see my former classmates graduate and their families smiling and happy while I didn't even have a graduation. I just received my diploma in the mail as I did online school due to everyone in my house being immunocompromised. No joke, my dad legit almost died of COVID in 2020. He was placed on a ventilator and barely survived. Nowadays, all I do is reminisce on the past and all the brutal moments that have happened to me while the chads and stacies who brutally bullied me are happy and having the time of their lives. They're partying, going on vacations, and having fun, while I spend all day on the PC doing nothing. I hate that I will never get justice for my suffering. I can't wait to be six feet under. It's over for me my disgusting ugly piece of shit self should have never been born Im worthless garbage who deserves to be thrown in the trash .

true
all my past mistakes and bad experiences i look back with more guilt and i get this weird feeling in my stomach when i think about them
i wish i did some things different
if only i was smart enough to understand blackpill back then maybe most if not all of those experiences would of never happened and id be happy maybe