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I hate myself. Not like "I hate how I look" or whatever.
I mean I hate the biological self. I continue to get horny and produce sperm even though I'm CONSCIOUSLY aware of how much of a disgusting subhuman I am and how much I shouldn't reproduce. I jerk off to white women which doesn't even make sense since I know I'm not even worthy to eat a white woman's shit, it's like my biological self wants to impregnate them even though I know that all it would do is create a genetically inferior baby.
I don't understand why my brain can't just shut off my testicles and turn me into an asexual piece of meat. Instead I've been cursed with a dick and been forced to participate in the sexual marketplace. You can NEVER leave the sexual marketplace. Everyone will always assume you're looking for sex as a guy. Well maybe I don't want it. Maybe I know I'm a non-human freak of nature and want to be non-sexual best buddies with girls. You never get that opportunity.
You can leave a job much like you leave a relationship with a girl, you can also stop applying to jobs, but you can NEVER stop unconsciously "applying" to women as a member of the human race. And that's why the physical self is a curse. Thanks for reading.
I mean I hate the biological self. I continue to get horny and produce sperm even though I'm CONSCIOUSLY aware of how much of a disgusting subhuman I am and how much I shouldn't reproduce. I jerk off to white women which doesn't even make sense since I know I'm not even worthy to eat a white woman's shit, it's like my biological self wants to impregnate them even though I know that all it would do is create a genetically inferior baby.
I don't understand why my brain can't just shut off my testicles and turn me into an asexual piece of meat. Instead I've been cursed with a dick and been forced to participate in the sexual marketplace. You can NEVER leave the sexual marketplace. Everyone will always assume you're looking for sex as a guy. Well maybe I don't want it. Maybe I know I'm a non-human freak of nature and want to be non-sexual best buddies with girls. You never get that opportunity.
You can leave a job much like you leave a relationship with a girl, you can also stop applying to jobs, but you can NEVER stop unconsciously "applying" to women as a member of the human race. And that's why the physical self is a curse. Thanks for reading.