azakhan
OG failure
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- Oct 1, 2019
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I am one of very few incels here that has normie friends and I want to tell you meeting with them showed me how hopeless my situation is. Missing crucial development steps like getting a gf or partying during teenage years fucks you up forever. YOU CANNOT RECOVER FROM IT.
All my friends got their first gfs and sex at the age of 15, since middle school they were partying and doing wild stuff (of course I was never invited) and only recenty I started meeting with them again. You know what they told me? That now they are 20 and they need to become more serious and they expierenced everything. Literally what they said. Were they trying to tount me knowing I'm a virgin? I don't know but I haven't expierenced anything and it's already too late. You understand me? I cannot move further.
Natural evolution of human mind is:
You will always be like a child compared to friends who "expierenced it all". No matter how much more money you will have than them they will mog you by default.
For me it's double hard because I grew up without a father. I am a pussy. I don't know anything about cars, I've never been to a fight, I don't know what hard work and responsiblity is. I am double or even triple fucked. But infinity * 3 is still infinity.
Thinking about rope more and more. My finals are approaching. Let's say I pass them, what next? Three years of studying subject I am not interested in? Then 40 years of work I am not interested in? And that's the best case scenario. There is big possibility I fail my exams and won't be able to study anything, disappointing my family and friends/
I'm so fucking anxious right now, yesterday I had a panic attack again and I almost threw up now I feel the same.
All my friends got their first gfs and sex at the age of 15, since middle school they were partying and doing wild stuff (of course I was never invited) and only recenty I started meeting with them again. You know what they told me? That now they are 20 and they need to become more serious and they expierenced everything. Literally what they said. Were they trying to tount me knowing I'm a virgin? I don't know but I haven't expierenced anything and it's already too late. You understand me? I cannot move further.
Natural evolution of human mind is:
- Childhood - innocence and fun
- Teenage years - sexuality and fun
- 20s - getting serious and hard work
- 30s-40s - misery and more hard work until you fucking die
You will always be like a child compared to friends who "expierenced it all". No matter how much more money you will have than them they will mog you by default.
For me it's double hard because I grew up without a father. I am a pussy. I don't know anything about cars, I've never been to a fight, I don't know what hard work and responsiblity is. I am double or even triple fucked. But infinity * 3 is still infinity.
Thinking about rope more and more. My finals are approaching. Let's say I pass them, what next? Three years of studying subject I am not interested in? Then 40 years of work I am not interested in? And that's the best case scenario. There is big possibility I fail my exams and won't be able to study anything, disappointing my family and friends/
I'm so fucking anxious right now, yesterday I had a panic attack again and I almost threw up now I feel the same.