I'm really starting to consider that my oneitis is a transgender, born male, hormone therapy to become female since very young.
My reasoning for this is that she displays a very different sort of body type and style from most noodlewhores I've seen, always had a very different upright walk too. And an almost overly feminine look to her face, similar to that from the results of hormone therapy. She's very thin, never had much muscle or tone even though her sister was super muscular because their dad is a coach and gymnastics competition fanatic. Could it be he only trained one daughter, and the other one just... Didn't?
She lives a seemingly sheltered life with her parents, and still has no kids. I have often thought she might be autistic, or in some delicate situation, or I thought maybe she walks weird due to some gymnastics injury and that's why it looks like she's never trained. She drives her parents car and doesn't seem to have a work schedule.
She must be 34, she's been engaged to a fat, white, tall, bald, ex jock for 5 years, and now they're married for 2 years. Still no kid, and even more odd still lives with her parents. After being married since 2016? I cant figure that one out.
I eventually creeped around and found thee FB accounts. One was her family dog, not much there but that was how I found the other two... Hers is basically blank, and what I found on the husbands was his profile has almost nothing on it also, it's basically a shrine to her... All he has is about 20 pictures of her, and a handful of him/her, and then most oddly he has a LGTB flag.
At first I though he was just a cuck, but now I'm starting to think that he married a transgender, and I unfortunately have been using her as a object of my mental fascinations and obsessing hard about her, while simultaneously making this unbearable loneliness worse. I am struggling with the fact this could just be a major cope, but something is not lining up.
She "seems different" from other girls, that's why my torturous imagination puts her on this pedestal, against my better judgement (mentalcel)... but! Maybe that difference is not because she's well mannered and a decent girl, maybe she seemingly acts differently from 99% of roasties because she's not one.
I still have the oneitis, this cope hasn't stopped it. Part of me really hopes this is true, because that would be an instant deal breaker for me, I could rejoice. Then my mind could finally fuck off and let me live my life without obsessing about someone I'll never be with anyway. Although it's a life long problem and I usually just mentally obsess about something or somebody else anyway... But I could use a break because these thoughts have been hardcore and intrusive for 3 years, it makes me physically ill when I see her, or his car.
My reasoning for this is that she displays a very different sort of body type and style from most noodlewhores I've seen, always had a very different upright walk too. And an almost overly feminine look to her face, similar to that from the results of hormone therapy. She's very thin, never had much muscle or tone even though her sister was super muscular because their dad is a coach and gymnastics competition fanatic. Could it be he only trained one daughter, and the other one just... Didn't?
She lives a seemingly sheltered life with her parents, and still has no kids. I have often thought she might be autistic, or in some delicate situation, or I thought maybe she walks weird due to some gymnastics injury and that's why it looks like she's never trained. She drives her parents car and doesn't seem to have a work schedule.
She must be 34, she's been engaged to a fat, white, tall, bald, ex jock for 5 years, and now they're married for 2 years. Still no kid, and even more odd still lives with her parents. After being married since 2016? I cant figure that one out.
I eventually creeped around and found thee FB accounts. One was her family dog, not much there but that was how I found the other two... Hers is basically blank, and what I found on the husbands was his profile has almost nothing on it also, it's basically a shrine to her... All he has is about 20 pictures of her, and a handful of him/her, and then most oddly he has a LGTB flag.
At first I though he was just a cuck, but now I'm starting to think that he married a transgender, and I unfortunately have been using her as a object of my mental fascinations and obsessing hard about her, while simultaneously making this unbearable loneliness worse. I am struggling with the fact this could just be a major cope, but something is not lining up.
She "seems different" from other girls, that's why my torturous imagination puts her on this pedestal, against my better judgement (mentalcel)... but! Maybe that difference is not because she's well mannered and a decent girl, maybe she seemingly acts differently from 99% of roasties because she's not one.
I still have the oneitis, this cope hasn't stopped it. Part of me really hopes this is true, because that would be an instant deal breaker for me, I could rejoice. Then my mind could finally fuck off and let me live my life without obsessing about someone I'll never be with anyway. Although it's a life long problem and I usually just mentally obsess about something or somebody else anyway... But I could use a break because these thoughts have been hardcore and intrusive for 3 years, it makes me physically ill when I see her, or his car.
