That’s the first thing that came to my mind tbh. Wasn’t expecting it to end that way either.
Yeah I guess that's true, I mean I do desire death, but it would be nice if the moments surrounding it were comfortable.
Death alone would have less meaning than a final holler combined with death. We literally are absolved of our entire life when we enter death but there’s nothing negative about dying in front of someone while you prove the world wrong. IMO.
What I'm saying is that death can in itself provide the "orgasm" that OP desiring. The sexual component in ending your life is already present in the act itself, as a negation of worldly desires and pain, in the same way that an ejaculation clears your wants; there's no need to put having sex with a woman into the equation. If OP sees the process of his thought to its natural end, he may find that a violent end has a purging effect in itself, that it is indeed cucked to let your desire for a woman get in the way of your real desire of death by having her fulfill it, when there are non-foidian ways of having that subconscious need satisfied. Why would you want to be murdered by a woman in that way? The symbolism isn't good -- it's like your entire life got cucked in that moment.
Agree tbh. That‘s helped me deal with my anxiety over mortality, thanks for explaining.
You're right, but I just find it difficult to separate the two. Possibly due to remaining a virgin for so long, but idk tbh. Irrelevant anyway since it's just daydreaming which will never happen, obviously I don't need a woman to kill myself.
My mind is kinda fucked up at this point tbh.
Yes quite cucked
Pathetic or not, my fantasy still seems desirable to me. My mind is sub, I guess it's better than literally having cuck desires jfl, but pretty over for me regardless. Killing me would be the ultimate form of domination.
That's another thing I think about a lot tbh, mentioned that in a thread a day or two ago. I used to fantasize a lot about killing myself together with a foid, well I guess I still do, but I mean that I've thought about it for a long time.
I see what you're saying now. You're afraid of the "decay" of the intoxication.
The first two options are almsot interchangeable, although they are different enough to be somewhat separate fantasies. The problem with the third option is that even if your feelings are preserved, you'd miss her. More specifically, you'd eventually begin to believe that the idealized version of the foid that you created in your head is real, and that you've lost her. When that isn't really true, she was never the foid at all, but your idealized partner being projected onto the foid. To me having her symbolically "die" along with the female seems sad, and sort of ruins the illusion you've created for yourself imo.
But the idealized impression of the foid is eternal, like a work of art. Her death is like a religious experience. Its value as a concept in your head is immeasurable, as a prophylactic against loving another foid and thus getting exploited, and as an aesthetic spur to incite poetic and godlike thoughts. The fleshly foid that died is separated neatly from the after-death idealized foid you now "own" in your head, and just because it feels sad and tragic to look back on it doesn't mean you really "lost" anything; in fact, what you've "lost" with the foid's death is only the negative aspects of her, the hypergamous problems of nature that we know all foids possess. It's sort of like editing a movie and excising all the bad scenes out of it.
I think I see what you're saying. Although I don't think you'd need a foid for that at all, or at least I wouldn't anyway. For me my idealized female exists regardless of anyone to project her onto. Well actually maybe that isn't true, it's probably more accurate to say I projected her onto my waifu tbh.
Yeah exactly. What I'm suggesting would help a lot with loneliness and emotional stuff, but does absolutely nothing for physical deprivation.
Spitting facts tbh
Tbh. I think this would be my preferred way to die.
I'm sure plenty of us would like that too and maybe one day this will (press x to doubt) become a meme for women to do to virtue signal or show off. Ignoring the murder consequences, there'll be a work-around. Not cucked to us because we feel desperate but afterwards we'd all regret it.
