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I have been in a state of shock for so long.
So many years, I was afraid all the time.
I’m not scared anymore……just aware.
But it’s quite tiring living this way.
It seems a strange concept to many, I’m sure.
But I live in a world of constant threats.
I eat and wonder if I’ve been poisoned.
I walk to the store and wonder if I’m being followed.
It feels like any day will be my last.
To live and die without ever having a girlfriend.
To never having been kissed.
This is what haunts me. Not that I will die, everyone dies.
But what troubles me is that I never really lived.
So many years, I was afraid all the time.
I’m not scared anymore……just aware.
But it’s quite tiring living this way.
It seems a strange concept to many, I’m sure.
But I live in a world of constant threats.
I eat and wonder if I’ve been poisoned.
I walk to the store and wonder if I’m being followed.
It feels like any day will be my last.
To live and die without ever having a girlfriend.
To never having been kissed.
This is what haunts me. Not that I will die, everyone dies.
But what troubles me is that I never really lived.
