ItheIthe
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Sometimes I will be in tolerable spirits, but that usually gets ruined when I have to witness the behavior of these women.
The fact that I could have been such a great lover to them, but they decided to give their love to everyone else and ruin that opportunity is truly depressing. Even worse, there's no going back. My ability to pair bond is broken, and I do feel it within myself. And I'm simply incapable of seeing women who have given their body, mind, soul, and spirit to another guy (Or other guys) as anything other than used up, and I'm simply incapable of being romanced by them. All of this would have been different if a nice innocent girl loved me once, and we stuck together. But that never happened, or if they did show interest, I was too scarred (Yes, scarred) and autistic to do anything.
I just try to focus on sports, because I love football and baseball. And then when I see women, it reminds me of how everything is irreparably broken and what could have been, and it is very depressing, to tell you the truth.
The fact that I could have been such a great lover to them, but they decided to give their love to everyone else and ruin that opportunity is truly depressing. Even worse, there's no going back. My ability to pair bond is broken, and I do feel it within myself. And I'm simply incapable of seeing women who have given their body, mind, soul, and spirit to another guy (Or other guys) as anything other than used up, and I'm simply incapable of being romanced by them. All of this would have been different if a nice innocent girl loved me once, and we stuck together. But that never happened, or if they did show interest, I was too scarred (Yes, scarred) and autistic to do anything.
I just try to focus on sports, because I love football and baseball. And then when I see women, it reminds me of how everything is irreparably broken and what could have been, and it is very depressing, to tell you the truth.