Why socialising can make me depressed

[MaxZM98]

I am a 19 y/o student in university, first year. I have aspergers syndrome and i have insecurities, terrible social anxiety, am ugly, and have never even been hugged by a girl other than the time i saw my childhood friend after a long time, but she already has a boyfriend.

I've been trying to socialise more because i'm so lonely, but it can make me more depressed at life. I was eating lunch with a group of people from the autism society, and was in a perfectly find mood. However, their conversation changed course, and i instantly felt really lonely and depressed.

they started talking about rooms they were going to have next year (they're going to be living in the same house next year for uni) and there is this hot girl in the group, and one of the guys said he didnt want to be on the same floor as her. she was like "oh is it because of the sex noises? dont worry im always quiet!!". this just instantly made me feel worthless and shit. this girl was one of the sweet ones too. i met her boyfriend earlier and he looks skinny af. i keep hearing others speaking about sex, and i'm so alone, while i have the highest sex drive in the world...it's just not fair. i was also told today by another hot girl that im ugly, and i know im ugly but that shouldnt give someone the right to say it to my face. although she's always nasty to me so whatever.

anyone else get this? please tell me your thoughts.. this is my first post on here. all hail supreme gentleman elliot rodger.

 

[Schizoidcel]

Being with other human beings drains me. I accepted that I'll die alone.

 

[TomathonClancy]

I hate socializing because it reminds me how much of a loser I am compared to everyone else, even if I'm one of the best-looking people in the group. I was with a male friend and two female friends, and I had to sit in awkward silence while they all talked about their sexual experiences. Some real suicide-fuel if you ask me.

 

[Wayne_McClain]

I'm up there with you fam, 20 y/o uni student here and even though I really don't have any issues with socializing I can't even get a girl to look at me. It fucking sucks to get to this age and not even have a girlfriend and shit. I used to get depressed all the time but the way I coped with it was to not think about it too much, so what did I do? I just ignored it, ignored the fact that I had never even been romantically involved with a woman and I did that by finding things to do. I started getting into electronics some time ago and lil bit of programming and honestly I feel I bit better. Yeah it still sucks but there is nothing I can do really.

 

[3uxp]

You eventually won't care. I'm with AS myself probably depressed too you will start feeling an empty hole in you that can't be filled with anything materialism, friends, family, hobbies, copes, studying, etc. just keep moving forward and don't think about it.

 

[Weed]

>19 yo
>autistic
= twister tbh thb

 

[Deleted member 6214]

Damn why's that bitch just telling you you're ugly? She bullying you for no reason? Bro, she's literally bullying a disabled kid (you have aspergers), you are allowed to punch the bitch square in the face, you have a great excuse, you won't even get in that much trouble.

 

[MaxZM98]

>19 yo
>autistic
= twister tbh thb

twister?

 

[Deleted member 1983]

im so glad im not in education anymore, seems like a constant barrage of suicide fuel for incels.

 

[MaxZM98]

Damn why's that bitch just telling you you're ugly? She bullying you for no reason? Bro, she's literally bullying a disabled kid (you have aspergers), you are allowed to punch the bitch square in the face, you have a great excuse, you won't even get in that much trouble.

she's nasty to people who aren't her type, especially me. she has autism herself (part of the autism group) so i try not to judge

 

[Weed]

twister?

newfags won't get it, also is it u in ur avi?

 

[MaxZM98]

newfags won't get it, also is it u in ur avi?

yeah it's me.

 

[Deleted member 6214]

she's nasty to people who aren't her type, especially me. she has autism herself (part of the autism group) so i try not to judge

Ah so she has autism herself. She sounds like a real bitch man. But as for the loneliness, I feel it too, at least you get to chat to others in your autism society, the last time I had a conversation with someone else my age was back in 2016. All I can say is stay strong and keep your mind busy on other things bro, we're all in this struggle together.

 

[Weed]

yeah it's me.

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[Deleted member 6214]

yeah it's me.

You mog me hard. Nice jawline.

 

[Voluntary_celibate]

I know this feel, I'm an autistic sperg myself. Whenever I try to socialize with people in real life I seem like a boring person to others and do cringy things which I regret for years after when I have flashbacks of my attempts.

 

[InebriatedIrish]

I am a 19 y/o student in university, first year. I have aspergers syndrome and i have insecurities, terrible social anxiety, am ugly, and have never even been hugged by a girl other than the time i saw my childhood friend after a long time, but she already has a boyfriend.

I've been trying to socialise more because i'm so lonely, but it can make me more depressed at life. I was eating lunch with a group of people from the autism society, and was in a perfectly find mood. However, their conversation changed course, and i instantly felt really lonely and depressed.

they started talking about rooms they were going to have next year (they're going to be living in the same house next year for uni) and there is this hot girl in the group, and one of the guys said he didnt want to be on the same floor as her. she was like "oh is it because of the sex noises? dont worry im always quiet!!". this just instantly made me feel worthless and shit. this girl was one of the sweet ones too. i met her boyfriend earlier and he looks skinny af. i keep hearing others speaking about sex, and i'm so alone, while i have the highest sex drive in the world...it's just not fair. i was also told today by another hot girl that im ugly, and i know im ugly but that shouldnt give someone the right to say it to my face. although she's always nasty to me so whatever.

anyone else get this? please tell me your thoughts.. this is my first post on here. all hail supreme gentleman elliot rodger.

Socializing is suicidefuel, not worth it. I couldn’t understand how to even hold a conversation through junior and high school. Today, I can only hold serious conversations with older people. Anyone the same age or younger still acts like a hooligan

Also, you’re trying too hard with that ER praising imo.

 

[MaxZM98]

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ah thanks. changed it

 

[Weed]

ah thanks. changed it

 

[Indari]

she was like "oh is it because of the sex noises? dont worry im always quiet!!".

 

[MaxZM98]

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yes. people talk about it so casually too which really bothers me

 

[Deleted member 6018]

Sad but true

 

[Incelibate anarchist]

I cant socialise at all, i can hardly look people in the eye, let alone speak to them.