Homegrownman326
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I've often discussed the sense of nihilism that engaging with sex (jerking off) and observing it as a force in the world creates for me. I dubbed this "sexual nihilism". I credited this to the fact that sex wouldn't exist without death. Death is something that creates an immense amount of destress for me. My latest explanation has to do with fatalism and Gnosticism. I believe that we're all victimized by existence. We never choose to exist, we never choose to exist the way we are, to be who we are and all the ensuing faults. And yet in life you're punished every step of the way for choices you never made and things you cannot control. I believe that engaging in sex, the act which creates suffering makes you forgo your existential victimhood. By having sex you're no longer the victim, but now the victimizer. Bring up the fact that you never chose to exist to your parents. Their reaction will tell you everything about how deluded breeders are. There has been a long standing cultural idea of sex causing one to lose their innocence. I think I discovered the origin of that idea. Engaging with sexuality causes one to not be against the world but to be consumed by it. You lose the innocence of being estranged from the evil of the world. Having sex is like looking directly at the horrors of life on earth and endorsing it. Now it has consumed the essence of your being. You're indistinguishable from the world's evil, no longer a mere victim.





