I feel the same way.
But I've also became sort of a sadist. I just don't have it in me to actually do anything bad to other people. But I have begun to enjoy sometimes knowing of people's pains.
Along the way, I noticed that EVERYONE is a sadist. Notice how they took Sadistic Personality Disorder out of the DSM-5?
The other day, my coworker almost laughed about his own daughter when he mentioned her problems. People are fucked up and p$ychiatry tries to mask that fact because people can't accept the truth.
When I have problems, people smile bright and try not to laugh. That's just how it is. There is no one who will care about you except for yourself.
Is it really morally wrong to be a sadist or is it useful? Take Jack Unteweger for example -- look at how obvious he was about what he did... and how long it took them to catch on, despite the fact that he was even inside of the car looking for the killer with the police! Jack Unteweger made fun of society and society didn't learn, they won't learn, they can't learn, they refuse to learn! Jack Unteweger murdered a prostitute for fun using his signature killing style (he choked them with their own panties) and he was able to get out of prison just because he was a good writer and was able to make up lies about how he's a good person, resulting in a very early release (imagine being that woman's mother -- just goes to show how society chooses who can do whatever they want). After he was released, he started killing women using the same signature style ... choking them to death with their bras or panties. Right under their nose.
Who's the bad guy... a society that doesn't care to find proper ways to prevent the murder of its society... or the guy who abused that vulnerability? Why won't society allow for us to patch that vulnerability? Trust me. There are ways of doing it, but they don't care. They refuse it! People are fucking stupid. Don't be surprised when your 4 year old daughter gets kidnapped and tortured one day (in video game).
