as i get older i really cant see why i dont just pull the plug. the reason i made it this far is because i have always had a solid athletic/mesomorphic frame (5'11, 190 lbs). ive been told that im proportionate and gotten some compliments on my arms over the years. my face is ugly but its a work in progress. ive had extensive work done to try and maxx it out (rhino, braces, fillers, etc.) and im also a gymcel. I coped over the years by lying to myself that itll all be good when i facemaxx and achieve my gymceling goals, but that is simply not true. you see, what people dont see is whats under my clothes. i may appear to have a decent looking body, but the truth is i have stretch marks all over similar to my avi. they are all over my lower/mid back and in various other spots such as: armpits, inner thighs, hips, and ass cheeks.
ive tried dermarolling, creams, lasers, and nothing has even put a dent in them over the years. they are absolutely permanent and there is nothing more suicide inducing than the realization of that. imagine working so hard and spending so much money to maxx your face out. then imagine working so hard in the gym for years to get some decent muscles. then imagine trying to moneymaxx, personalitymaxx, and careermaxx on top it all only for it to all be worthless in the end. there is nobody on this planet who wouldnt be grossed out at my body if they saw the full extent of my stretch marks. my avi is not me, but mine are not far off. i would even argue that mine are worse than my avi considering i have them in more spots. i am pretty sure i have EDS or some other skin related condition but i was never diagnosed. i never even got these from being overweight, just from growth spurts. funny huh? there is not 1 woman on earth who wouldnt be repulsed and appalled if they saw me. life is so cruel and ironic because i have a decent sized dick, and decent height and frame. but its all worthless in the end.
why on earth should i not suicide? i am a genetic dead end. im sorry if i offend any shortcels, but 1 thing we have in common is we both know the feeling of an incurable and unfixable issue that is considered unattractive. nothing will ever help us. my skin will never be normal in this lifetime, and you will most likely never elongate your spines in this lifetime. if it makes you feel any better, i would rather be sub 5'3 than to have these marks. that may be laughably short, but at least you are fucking normal and not deformed.
as for any larping fakecels on this website, read this post and then have a long sit down and ask yourself if you are really a truecel or not. you dont even come fucking close to what i have. most of you are probably larping frauds like that bitch ass nigga tellem-t
ive tried dermarolling, creams, lasers, and nothing has even put a dent in them over the years. they are absolutely permanent and there is nothing more suicide inducing than the realization of that. imagine working so hard and spending so much money to maxx your face out. then imagine working so hard in the gym for years to get some decent muscles. then imagine trying to moneymaxx, personalitymaxx, and careermaxx on top it all only for it to all be worthless in the end. there is nobody on this planet who wouldnt be grossed out at my body if they saw the full extent of my stretch marks. my avi is not me, but mine are not far off. i would even argue that mine are worse than my avi considering i have them in more spots. i am pretty sure i have EDS or some other skin related condition but i was never diagnosed. i never even got these from being overweight, just from growth spurts. funny huh? there is not 1 woman on earth who wouldnt be repulsed and appalled if they saw me. life is so cruel and ironic because i have a decent sized dick, and decent height and frame. but its all worthless in the end.
why on earth should i not suicide? i am a genetic dead end. im sorry if i offend any shortcels, but 1 thing we have in common is we both know the feeling of an incurable and unfixable issue that is considered unattractive. nothing will ever help us. my skin will never be normal in this lifetime, and you will most likely never elongate your spines in this lifetime. if it makes you feel any better, i would rather be sub 5'3 than to have these marks. that may be laughably short, but at least you are fucking normal and not deformed.
as for any larping fakecels on this website, read this post and then have a long sit down and ask yourself if you are really a truecel or not. you dont even come fucking close to what i have. most of you are probably larping frauds like that bitch ass nigga tellem-t
