I'm so fucking tired of living. I was doing so well too, I joined a taekwondo studio eight-ish months ago because I couldn't get on the wrestling team (I'm a fucking lightweight faggot with joint problems) and found a respectable instructor not much older than me that understood what I was going through, we gamed every other day and actually became good friends. I was improving my grades and thought I looked college ready. I joined a techie-based video elective that might have actually gotten me a career past all this. I was out of the shit hole that was my mental health and got off this fucking retarded forum. But here I am, back where I started. My instructor fucking killed himself. My friend died in a car accident yesterday. The girl I had been talking to at my studio blew me off and said "this isn't the time for that." I've involuntarily fucked my life over and everything I once enjoyed only gives me pain. I'm just going to lurk on here like I used to or end it.
