My boyfriend is getting more and more aggressive and hateful during Sex
Atm I have the feeling that my boyfriend is taking out all his anger and aggression on me. It’s not really rape what he does because I didn’t say anything but it just feels like it.
I practice bdsm so rough sex is nothing new to me. But since a few weeks my boyfriend gets more and more aggressive during sex. His eyes are full of hate

. He punches and slaps me way more than usual. I even got bruises on my face which he knows I don’t want because then everyone will ask me about it. Last weekend he dislocated my jaw. He looks like he wants to kill me when he chokes me and he doesn’t stop when I signal him to stop. I just feel like he hates me. But he doesn’t directly tell me.
I don’t know how long I can take this. Since a few weeks there hasn’t been one time where I didn’t have to hold back my tears during sex. I don’t want him to see me crying because of an incident that happened between us. And I’m kinda scared of him. He told me yesterday how he would kill me if he ever wanted to.
The increase of the pain he inflicts on me isn’t even what makes me feel raped.. it’s more the fact that he treats me like I’m no human. That he looks at me like I mean nothing to him and I’m the worst existing thing in this universe. I feel so disgusting, used and impure. And it brings back memories and feelings from times where I was really raped.
I’m sorry if this is the wrong subreddit for this. I didn’t know where else to post.
Maybe there’s someone who can tell me if I’m overreacting. I don’t know what to do.