Topic.
Recently, I noticed a gorgeous biracial (half black, half white--or quadroon, I lean toward latter) cashier girl at the local grocery store who behaved very shy and coy a few times last month when we met face to face with me as a frequent customer. I recognized this young college-age woman as a consistent employee for a few years, even when she was youthful as barely legal in about 2021.
Despite the apparent age difference of approximate 25 years among other theoretical negative and socially controversial factors, even with me wearing the earrings and a nose ring (for personal reason intended to dispel certain women to filter), this woman still had a crush on me as visibly apparent. She was quite nervous when she served as a cashier, even fumbled a price as manually input for a discount orange juice jar which had to be corrected by me.
However, my piercings proved ineffective as it did not dissuade her. I felt a bit of warmth in seeing her being cute as shy when she saw me. I almost contemplated asking her out, and the last time I even tried to ask a woman out was in fucking 2013, when the other attractive woman employee rejected me for a second time and then quit, at the very same local grocery store near my Section 8 subsidized shithole basement apartment adjacent to my parents' house, because I can't afford to live on my own in this goddamn crazy state that's probably the #1 in the nation for the largest number of male incels per capita. (Not Massachusetts and not California).
What happened next infuriated me as betrayal.
The woman quit her job to disappear, leaving me heartbroken without explanation. I haven't seen her for a month on my repeat visits. I noticed that the youthful co-workers seemed concerned as they looked at me like a freak every time I visited.
In sum, crush is total bullshit. It's nothing but deceiving.
Just because an agreeable woman might have a crush (as far as correctly construed and visible, such as shy, flirtatious and amorous) on the "closeted" incel (me: disguised as a rebellious pseudo-punk who carries "Bad Motherfucker" brown wallet in my pocket)—who never had a girlfriend in his long fucking life (I came close to having a gf in HS but then I was forced to move to another state with my family when I was 18 and broke without a job and no savings)—does not mean it will parlay to dating and relationship opportunity.
I say again: crush is bullshit.
What this means is that "crush" is a cruel deception and headfake (head game) that serve to set up a man to feel the blooming warmth of love, only to pull the rug to leave emotionally devastated as if shunned that devolved to misogynistic rage.
I haven't experienced the warmth of developing love reacting to the woman's "crush" on me in many years. Yet because of my recent disappointing experience that the woman resigned her job to "ditch" me, my heart of stone returns.
Blackpill is the truth. Do not be deceived by what one sees to be "crush". Crush is why love is a lie.
This is why I'm a misogynist and a misanthrope because I'm always a reject, especially being bamboozled by bullshit called crush when it doesn't mean anything but bullshit. My experience as a truecel attests the bitter pill that I'm nothing to this world, as proven by this woman quitting her job to reject me despite the noted crush on me, to leave me confounded with a heartache.
Fuck crush.
What the hell is love even about and what love is for? Love is nothing but game that evades and rejects. Foid cunts exploit love to deceive and fuck men over like it's a sick game.
I hope the bullshit insane self-absorbed fuckup state where I live will get nuked or get ashed by Yellowstone supervolcano eruption or something catastrophic. Fuck this world.
Recently, I noticed a gorgeous biracial (half black, half white--or quadroon, I lean toward latter) cashier girl at the local grocery store who behaved very shy and coy a few times last month when we met face to face with me as a frequent customer. I recognized this young college-age woman as a consistent employee for a few years, even when she was youthful as barely legal in about 2021.
Despite the apparent age difference of approximate 25 years among other theoretical negative and socially controversial factors, even with me wearing the earrings and a nose ring (for personal reason intended to dispel certain women to filter), this woman still had a crush on me as visibly apparent. She was quite nervous when she served as a cashier, even fumbled a price as manually input for a discount orange juice jar which had to be corrected by me.
However, my piercings proved ineffective as it did not dissuade her. I felt a bit of warmth in seeing her being cute as shy when she saw me. I almost contemplated asking her out, and the last time I even tried to ask a woman out was in fucking 2013, when the other attractive woman employee rejected me for a second time and then quit, at the very same local grocery store near my Section 8 subsidized shithole basement apartment adjacent to my parents' house, because I can't afford to live on my own in this goddamn crazy state that's probably the #1 in the nation for the largest number of male incels per capita. (Not Massachusetts and not California).
What happened next infuriated me as betrayal.
The woman quit her job to disappear, leaving me heartbroken without explanation. I haven't seen her for a month on my repeat visits. I noticed that the youthful co-workers seemed concerned as they looked at me like a freak every time I visited.
In sum, crush is total bullshit. It's nothing but deceiving.
Just because an agreeable woman might have a crush (as far as correctly construed and visible, such as shy, flirtatious and amorous) on the "closeted" incel (me: disguised as a rebellious pseudo-punk who carries "Bad Motherfucker" brown wallet in my pocket)—who never had a girlfriend in his long fucking life (I came close to having a gf in HS but then I was forced to move to another state with my family when I was 18 and broke without a job and no savings)—does not mean it will parlay to dating and relationship opportunity.
I say again: crush is bullshit.
What this means is that "crush" is a cruel deception and headfake (head game) that serve to set up a man to feel the blooming warmth of love, only to pull the rug to leave emotionally devastated as if shunned that devolved to misogynistic rage.
I haven't experienced the warmth of developing love reacting to the woman's "crush" on me in many years. Yet because of my recent disappointing experience that the woman resigned her job to "ditch" me, my heart of stone returns.
Blackpill is the truth. Do not be deceived by what one sees to be "crush". Crush is why love is a lie.
This is why I'm a misogynist and a misanthrope because I'm always a reject, especially being bamboozled by bullshit called crush when it doesn't mean anything but bullshit. My experience as a truecel attests the bitter pill that I'm nothing to this world, as proven by this woman quitting her job to reject me despite the noted crush on me, to leave me confounded with a heartache.
Fuck crush.
What the hell is love even about and what love is for? Love is nothing but game that evades and rejects. Foid cunts exploit love to deceive and fuck men over like it's a sick game.
I hope the bullshit insane self-absorbed fuckup state where I live will get nuked or get ashed by Yellowstone supervolcano eruption or something catastrophic. Fuck this world.
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