BlackPilledKira
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Ever since highschool I've noticed that the more people come to know me the more they make fun of me.
It starts out as friendly banter but transforms into passive ridiculing where sometimes these "friends" will even make jokes at my expense to impress someone else and exert some kind of dominance over me. This used to happen so much in school until one day i stood up for myself and got violent with these cunts, and even beat the crap out of one guy who kept embarrassing me in front of classmates. However this resulted in so much awkward tension and people begun to avoid me entirely and instead made fun of my violent reactions.
I'm so sick of this shit, it happened again today where an acquaintance called me an idiot as a joke in math class (in college) since we were discussing answers on a question and mine happened to be wrong. Originally i would laugh it off and think nothing of it, but i've experienced this exact scenario and every friendly relationship turned into me being the butt of every joke and some guy to clown at.
The weird thing is that i don't even look like a wimpy beta, i'm 6ft and framemog the shit out of these guys yet for some reason my demeanor somehow leads me to be the beta in every social situation. I think it might be my wimpy ass voice and mannerisms which occurred from years of social isolation, introversion and bullying. Does anyone else experience this phenomenon? Is there any way to fix this?
It starts out as friendly banter but transforms into passive ridiculing where sometimes these "friends" will even make jokes at my expense to impress someone else and exert some kind of dominance over me. This used to happen so much in school until one day i stood up for myself and got violent with these cunts, and even beat the crap out of one guy who kept embarrassing me in front of classmates. However this resulted in so much awkward tension and people begun to avoid me entirely and instead made fun of my violent reactions.
I'm so sick of this shit, it happened again today where an acquaintance called me an idiot as a joke in math class (in college) since we were discussing answers on a question and mine happened to be wrong. Originally i would laugh it off and think nothing of it, but i've experienced this exact scenario and every friendly relationship turned into me being the butt of every joke and some guy to clown at.
The weird thing is that i don't even look like a wimpy beta, i'm 6ft and framemog the shit out of these guys yet for some reason my demeanor somehow leads me to be the beta in every social situation. I think it might be my wimpy ass voice and mannerisms which occurred from years of social isolation, introversion and bullying. Does anyone else experience this phenomenon? Is there any way to fix this?