I met him in a bar, he was kind of chubby and cute and friendly, I had just been screwed over by an asshole so I was feeling pretty low so a nice guy seemed like what I needed. I was about 28, he was in his 30s. We chatted for a bit and got steadily drunker and reckless. He ended up ditching his friends and we went back to his hotel room. I thought it would be a fun one-off.
Only he was just terrible. Clumsy, awkward, shaking, I still remember the hopeful look on his face as he fingered me all knuckles and thumbs in a way I hadn't experienced since my late teens. During the leadup I was rapidly losing any excitement I had plus realising I wasnt as attracted to his naked body as I had hoped. He was so sweet I didn't have the heart to tell him it wasn't doing it for me (also expressing needs was a problem of mine- that's another story). I encouraged PIV thinking at least that would be ok, but I was wrong. I had wanted a standard shag but this was soft, slow-but-awkward, making luuurve and he kept catching my eye and smiling like it was our wedding day. Something about it felt really weird. He came and then went down on me... Oh god... I still have nightmare flashbacks to him lapping at my vagina in a crouch position like an eager puppy... I am not trying to be cruel here it was just deeply unsexy somehow. I think I stopped him doing that and told him I was too tired/drunk to finish. He was so kind and nice about it and I felt terrible for hating the sex.
Afterwards he told me that a) I was his first, b) he was a lifelong Christian having doubts (hence the virginity), c) I had come along at the right time... he always knew there was something better than religion. I felt even worse as he thought sex marked the start of something special that night, whereas I had just been out to get laid.
I stayed the night and swapped numbers trying to convince myself he was too nice to not give it a chance... but after one more date I realised I couldn't even bring myself to kiss him and had to end it. This whole episode makes me cringe, for my own behaviour as much as the memory of the sex.
Stupid fucking degenerate bitch. "Oh I was just looking for one-time sex with a guy I just met teehee!". Whores like that should be lynched.
Reminder that this is what would happen if you lost your virginity.
Only he was just terrible. Clumsy, awkward, shaking, I still remember the hopeful look on his face as he fingered me all knuckles and thumbs in a way I hadn't experienced since my late teens. During the leadup I was rapidly losing any excitement I had plus realising I wasnt as attracted to his naked body as I had hoped. He was so sweet I didn't have the heart to tell him it wasn't doing it for me (also expressing needs was a problem of mine- that's another story). I encouraged PIV thinking at least that would be ok, but I was wrong. I had wanted a standard shag but this was soft, slow-but-awkward, making luuurve and he kept catching my eye and smiling like it was our wedding day. Something about it felt really weird. He came and then went down on me... Oh god... I still have nightmare flashbacks to him lapping at my vagina in a crouch position like an eager puppy... I am not trying to be cruel here it was just deeply unsexy somehow. I think I stopped him doing that and told him I was too tired/drunk to finish. He was so kind and nice about it and I felt terrible for hating the sex.
Afterwards he told me that a) I was his first, b) he was a lifelong Christian having doubts (hence the virginity), c) I had come along at the right time... he always knew there was something better than religion. I felt even worse as he thought sex marked the start of something special that night, whereas I had just been out to get laid.
I stayed the night and swapped numbers trying to convince myself he was too nice to not give it a chance... but after one more date I realised I couldn't even bring myself to kiss him and had to end it. This whole episode makes me cringe, for my own behaviour as much as the memory of the sex.
Stupid fucking degenerate bitch. "Oh I was just looking for one-time sex with a guy I just met teehee!". Whores like that should be lynched.
Reminder that this is what would happen if you lost your virginity.
