BlkPillPres
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I have this weird thing where the longer I wait to achieve something the further I push the standards of the goal, and it always reaches unrealistic proportions. Like I know its pretty much impossible, but I always just set that goal in my head and whenever I think it can't go any further I come up with something to push it further
Take revenge on society for example:
At first I guess I had a "dream" to create and spread some kind of virus that would kill a few million people
As time went on it became wanting to wipe out most of the planet or render earths entire population infertile
Currently I'm at the point where I'm thinking - "But no, that wouldn't be enough now would it, what about all the Chad's and Stacy's of the past that got to live amazing lives, I can't let that happen either, so I have to find some means of time distortion so I can destroy the time space continuum, and destroy everything in reality from the beginning to now"
Can it even go further than this, i don't think so, this is pretty much the limit of crazy dreams
Weirdly enough I always end up researching these things legitimately trying to find ways to do it, to pull off something like this I may have to wait for science to advance a few decades, it will likely always be at the top of my head though
This is just one example of this "quirk" manifesting, I do this with basically everything, its probably the core of my work ethnic, because I'm always "over thinking", trying to come up with ways to improve something or make something work, probably why I've always been promoted so quickly and acknowledged as a "hard worker", almost everything I do becomes an obsession that becomes more and more extreme over time until it is completed
The longer I wait to complete a goal, the more I obsess over it and think about it, and that usually leads to me pushing the envelope for it further and further because I'm thinking - "well I've already missed out on so much" or "i've already lost this much time" so "I have to take it to this level now to make up for it"
I think I've atleast reached the end of the line for my revenge goal though, there's nothing further one can do past destroying everything from past to present
Take revenge on society for example:
At first I guess I had a "dream" to create and spread some kind of virus that would kill a few million people
As time went on it became wanting to wipe out most of the planet or render earths entire population infertile
Currently I'm at the point where I'm thinking - "But no, that wouldn't be enough now would it, what about all the Chad's and Stacy's of the past that got to live amazing lives, I can't let that happen either, so I have to find some means of time distortion so I can destroy the time space continuum, and destroy everything in reality from the beginning to now"
Can it even go further than this, i don't think so, this is pretty much the limit of crazy dreams
Weirdly enough I always end up researching these things legitimately trying to find ways to do it, to pull off something like this I may have to wait for science to advance a few decades, it will likely always be at the top of my head though
This is just one example of this "quirk" manifesting, I do this with basically everything, its probably the core of my work ethnic, because I'm always "over thinking", trying to come up with ways to improve something or make something work, probably why I've always been promoted so quickly and acknowledged as a "hard worker", almost everything I do becomes an obsession that becomes more and more extreme over time until it is completed
The longer I wait to complete a goal, the more I obsess over it and think about it, and that usually leads to me pushing the envelope for it further and further because I'm thinking - "well I've already missed out on so much" or "i've already lost this much time" so "I have to take it to this level now to make up for it"
I think I've atleast reached the end of the line for my revenge goal though, there's nothing further one can do past destroying everything from past to present
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