Yep. I never fully read his manifesto either, but I’ve heard people say in videos about him that his father was struggling financially and couldn’t even pay his car insurance for a while. I relate to ER a lot too. I’m not sure if you saw it, but someone on here posted a video of ER driving his BMW around at night around the college town. He watched others partying and walking with their girlfriends while he rotted in loneliness. It was a sad video and really showed how beaten down by life he was. I feel the same way when I’m out and see couples hanging out or parties. It’s brutal being so close to that life but knowing you will never be a part of it. I can watch, but never join them. I was also bullied for my looks and being autistic right from 5th grade straight through high school. I never fit in anywhere. Group school projects were the worst. Out of a bunch of groups in a class of 30 people, not one group would let me join them. Then the teacher had to assign me into a group and that was humiliating. They hated my presence in their group. I was the only one in the whole class who couldn’t find a group. That same story repeated itself all throughout my school life and it was brutal. Bullies fucked my mind up so badly over the years. Nothing will ever undo that damage, even if I somehow made friends and got a gf.