I don't blame you. The media that we're fed glorifies white women above all else from our movies to our pornography. It's even worse that hollywood keeps pumping out media with BMWF couples even though the VAST majority of black men marry black women.
The newer generation of blackcels are in for a rude awakening when they find out white women find them repulsive irl despite all the movies and shows having handsome black men with white girlfriends. Dr. Umar Johnson was right, Hollywood is brainwashing these black boys to love white women who won't love them back.