I was feeling very content, relaxed at the time and copemaxxing. Listening to music, watching some video essays. I decided to play musical chairs in my room to a really funny song because I'm retarded and wanted to stim. So I brought some chairs to my room, set the music to play and stop sometimes and started playing the game. But then I saw the girl and she was the girl inside my mind. She was really attractive, had black medium hair, really cute face, fair skin, and dressed very stylish with high socks and boots and checkered/striped clothing/black jacket idk she was just really cute and dressed pretty alt. Exactly my type!
Anyways she wasn't a real girl but more so a girl deep inside my subconscious and I think me feeling content at the moment I sort of felt reality collapsing and almost stubmled into a dream-like state. It was an hallucination obviously but i don't know to what point because I believe what I saw and it was real. I played the musical chairs with her and some of "Our" friends or the other individuals of my mind started playing it with me until I couldn't really recognize them anymore but that was when it faded and I couldn't even say goodbye to her. But she was so pretty and felt so real.
I tried to imitate this and summon another person but I shortly gave up after I realized how difficult it was to raise them into having their own thoughts, u have to basically dissociate from reality and create an entire logical framework for how it works which is hard because there comes a point where you can't keep up and it becomes too tiring.
Anyways she wasn't a real girl but more so a girl deep inside my subconscious and I think me feeling content at the moment I sort of felt reality collapsing and almost stubmled into a dream-like state. It was an hallucination obviously but i don't know to what point because I believe what I saw and it was real. I played the musical chairs with her and some of "Our" friends or the other individuals of my mind started playing it with me until I couldn't really recognize them anymore but that was when it faded and I couldn't even say goodbye to her. But she was so pretty and felt so real.
I tried to imitate this and summon another person but I shortly gave up after I realized how difficult it was to raise them into having their own thoughts, u have to basically dissociate from reality and create an entire logical framework for how it works which is hard because there comes a point where you can't keep up and it becomes too tiring.
