I am tired of life too. During my life, I've only got to know loneliness, depression, endless humiliation and ostracism of the worst kind. I'm in my late twenties and I'm tired of it all. Just tired. On top of all that, just recently I suffered another brutal humiliation, when my ex friend who harrased me in the past started secretly dating my oneitis. This girl I've been enamored with... she kept me from total madness, from suicide or worse. Thoughts of her is what kept me going through the days. And now he has her... I'm seriosly tired, even if I achieve success later in life it will mean nothing to me because I never got to be truly loved by someone and have friends, normal, just normal life. To be normal and not outcast, that's all I ever asked, but fuck it, I guess I wasn't lucky enough... it's what I got with birth. I literally don't have anyone to talk to, my mother sadly doesn't understand me. All I know is I'm tired... I've lived long enough to know that.