
ClovER
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- Dec 21, 2024
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When I finish playing video games or watching anime, I go outside and see everyone hanging out with friends and girls. Especially my old schoolmates.
So I realize I'm wasting my time while others are living their real lives.
What am I supposed to do? Obviously, you find this answer yourself without having to ask anyone, but the strong feeling of nihilistic depression when you realize that even distraction doesn't help is something that eats me up inside.
I can't find meaning in anything anymore: anime, video games, movies, TV shows.
And I don't think I can distract myself with this again. I've simply lost the meaning of doing these solitary activities.
I want to experience the same thing as everyone else out there... but I know this is inevitable.
So I realize I'm wasting my time while others are living their real lives.
What am I supposed to do? Obviously, you find this answer yourself without having to ask anyone, but the strong feeling of nihilistic depression when you realize that even distraction doesn't help is something that eats me up inside.
I can't find meaning in anything anymore: anime, video games, movies, TV shows.
And I don't think I can distract myself with this again. I've simply lost the meaning of doing these solitary activities.
I want to experience the same thing as everyone else out there... but I know this is inevitable.