I don't really wanna go into detail because the whole experience is what got me into blackpill and is major suicide fuel to this day,so I'm just gonna list some main points.
So a few years ago,when I was like 17,I went out with a chad cousin of mine who was visiting for a few days,he lives in a different country,but we stay somewhat close.
Basically,we go out to this bar near where I live(small town,but a lot of tourists in summer),we sit down and order two beers,when I notice these 3 beautiful girls who were sitting alone across from us looking towards our table and giggling to each other.I try to act cool and casually turn my head towards my cousin and we get to talking.Like a minute later in the corner of my eye I spot those 3 girls getting up,I thought they were leaving,but instead to my great surprise I see them coming towards our table.They walk up to where we're sitting and one of them asks us if they could join us(while the other cunts are giggling),we say sure.My heart is pumping,for the first time in my life women aren't repulsed by me.
We start talking,they ask us where we're from,we ask them where they're from etc etc.turns out they lived in my country,but far from my hometown.So we continue the conversation for a few minutes when I notice a strange thing,each one of the girls has their back slightly turned towards me and all are looking at my cousin,also when he speaks the seem to pay close attention,meanwhile when I start talking they seem to just wait for me to end and give me one word answers,even though my cousin barely speaks the language.
Suddenly,my cousin says something which I didn't think was funny at all,nor did he he seem to intend for it to to come out as a humorous statement,but the girls obviously thought it was hilarious since they all started laughing and the one sitting nearest to him puts her hand on his shoulder and at the same time gives him the widest "I want you to fuck me now" smile I have ever seen.I was really weirded out since I thought girls value confidence more than anything else and since my cousin couldn't even speak well everything he said would usually come out awkward and he would keep asking us how you pronounced certain words.
The conversation continued in the same theme,I was ignored,my cousin was adored.Later we all went out to a nearby club,at which he got some more painfully blatant IOI's,women would try to catch his eye and were all smiling at him while staring him in the face.I was shocked since I'd never seen girls act this way.
At the end of the night he ended up going to that first girl's place.The next day he told me all about how he fucked her while I pretended not to be on the verge of tears.
So a few years ago,when I was like 17,I went out with a chad cousin of mine who was visiting for a few days,he lives in a different country,but we stay somewhat close.
Basically,we go out to this bar near where I live(small town,but a lot of tourists in summer),we sit down and order two beers,when I notice these 3 beautiful girls who were sitting alone across from us looking towards our table and giggling to each other.I try to act cool and casually turn my head towards my cousin and we get to talking.Like a minute later in the corner of my eye I spot those 3 girls getting up,I thought they were leaving,but instead to my great surprise I see them coming towards our table.They walk up to where we're sitting and one of them asks us if they could join us(while the other cunts are giggling),we say sure.My heart is pumping,for the first time in my life women aren't repulsed by me.
We start talking,they ask us where we're from,we ask them where they're from etc etc.turns out they lived in my country,but far from my hometown.So we continue the conversation for a few minutes when I notice a strange thing,each one of the girls has their back slightly turned towards me and all are looking at my cousin,also when he speaks the seem to pay close attention,meanwhile when I start talking they seem to just wait for me to end and give me one word answers,even though my cousin barely speaks the language.
Suddenly,my cousin says something which I didn't think was funny at all,nor did he he seem to intend for it to to come out as a humorous statement,but the girls obviously thought it was hilarious since they all started laughing and the one sitting nearest to him puts her hand on his shoulder and at the same time gives him the widest "I want you to fuck me now" smile I have ever seen.I was really weirded out since I thought girls value confidence more than anything else and since my cousin couldn't even speak well everything he said would usually come out awkward and he would keep asking us how you pronounced certain words.
The conversation continued in the same theme,I was ignored,my cousin was adored.Later we all went out to a nearby club,at which he got some more painfully blatant IOI's,women would try to catch his eye and were all smiling at him while staring him in the face.I was shocked since I'd never seen girls act this way.
At the end of the night he ended up going to that first girl's place.The next day he told me all about how he fucked her while I pretended not to be on the verge of tears.
