Porn is my only source of dopamine there is no amount of gaslighting would change my mind about it since without it there's no thrill in my life nor excitement at this point and even then anyway i feel like I'm just a shell of a human being , surviving by artifical means stripped away from any meaningful relationships, ideals, values living solely because I'm too coward to end my existence.
Now the question is should i stop my only source of pleasure for extended amount of time just to see how much i can endure suffering ? Since I'm suffering anyway after i fap, maybe I'm not truly blackpilled because i numb the pain with porn. All I'm saying maybe i should truly suffer to the max and fully embrace the pain not block it and if that turns out to be a horrible expirment then i shall indulge in porn and any other means of artificial pleasures like drugs for the rest of my life because surly I'm not going to be High on my natural supply by being "loved" or be something in this world i know even Chads and normies struggle but i feel like i was born to suffer, hell even some of you could cope just fine and actually have a life outside of wanting a foid so yeah feel free to drop your insight on this or troll it really doesn't matter.
Now the question is should i stop my only source of pleasure for extended amount of time just to see how much i can endure suffering ? Since I'm suffering anyway after i fap, maybe I'm not truly blackpilled because i numb the pain with porn. All I'm saying maybe i should truly suffer to the max and fully embrace the pain not block it and if that turns out to be a horrible expirment then i shall indulge in porn and any other means of artificial pleasures like drugs for the rest of my life because surly I'm not going to be High on my natural supply by being "loved" or be something in this world i know even Chads and normies struggle but i feel like i was born to suffer, hell even some of you could cope just fine and actually have a life outside of wanting a foid so yeah feel free to drop your insight on this or troll it really doesn't matter.
