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I try to cope with all kinds of shit. Gaming, movies, porn, memes, this forum etc and in the moment it works. These copes allow me to escape my bitter reality for a brief moment. But at the end of the day, when I had my fair share of gaming for the day, when I laughed at enough memes, when the .is notifications stop rolling in, when everything goes quiet, I snap back to reality and remember how poor hopeless and alone I am. I zone out and stare blankly at my screen for 15+ minutes thinking about my life and how I got here. My problems run far deeper than not being able to get laid. I need to completely demolish and rebuild myself from scratch if I ever hope to live a happy life. I dont think im ever going to make it though to be frank. Rant over 
