Just do what I'm going to do.
I'm travelling to Thailand in a few months and by few I mean 6-9 months to fuck thai hookers in Pattaya and lose my virginity. Apparently it's the easiest place on earth to do that so...
No idea how the fk am I gonna do that being so autistic and high inhib but I gotta do it. I tried asking others on this website who are older and virgins like me to come with me but most don't wanna commit or just don't wanna do it, I mean I understand after all I'm just some nobody from the internet but still, kinda sad that I'll be there alone most likely, that's not gonna do me any favours. Honestly I don't even know what I'm doing with my life anymore I live on just exist mode, but one thing I know for sure is that I'm not fucking dying a fucking virgin and I'm not gonna turn 30 without ever sticking my dick in pussy even if it's a fucking escort/prostitute. It weighs heavily on my psyche, it will torture me until I get it over with, it's just built into our biology.
It's very cruel to live like this, idk what I'll do after I lose my cherry though, it's probably safer for me to stay a virgin.