Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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I've contemplated it for a long time, since I was a teenager. For years i've been thinking of it daily.
But one thing I know for sure is I'll never do it. There's just something so hard about it. I fear the pain, I fear not succeeding. It's no so much fear as a deep, primal repulsion at the thought of actually doing it. Even though I want to end it all, and this is no exaggeration. Plus I hurt my parents enough already.
I guess I'll have to wait for natural reasons to get me, and with the way I eat and rot in my bed, shouldn't be more than 30 years.
But one thing I know for sure is I'll never do it. There's just something so hard about it. I fear the pain, I fear not succeeding. It's no so much fear as a deep, primal repulsion at the thought of actually doing it. Even though I want to end it all, and this is no exaggeration. Plus I hurt my parents enough already.
I guess I'll have to wait for natural reasons to get me, and with the way I eat and rot in my bed, shouldn't be more than 30 years.