SuicideFuel What’s happening to me?

[Eternatus]

I suppose I’ve got everything in check for my mediocre day off, resting from my wageslave job but it’s actually tolerable now, got some games and having been playing all time, went to the supermarket too for groceries and ate what i wanted.

My day wasn’t disrupted despite some worries regarding a debt collection thing i still need to figure out.

Why I’m in the middle of the night and waking up with a tumult of sadness wrenching me from the inside and feeling cortisol spams, nausea and a pletora of unjustified regret? Like im grieving for something I don’t even experienced, a point of no return. I’ll soon be 24, I know depression pretty well but this is more serious.

I never felt sadness this way, or it’s quite rare. It usually slips away from me but I'm going into tachycardia and feel miserably alone and a burden for seeing my parents getting older while staying underachieving.

It’s trivial for you thats what happens for everyone here but this time I’m collapsing on my stomach and I feel I wanna scream for help feels like I was set back to my primordial misery and everything I’ve gone through was all useless and I’m an aged kid I wasted it all, cannot recover from this.

 

[chudjak]

Are you able bodied or disabled? What's your height? How ugly are you? Do you have a bad frame? Are you super fat or skinny?

 

[Darth Aquarius]

Another day, another brutal read

 

[fokusin]

Did you feel better after?

 

[zd60]

I kinda feel the same, brutal man hope it gets better

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

Like im grieving for something I don’t even experienced

You're having blackpill withdrawal, you body is trying to trick you into believing that is not over but your mind knows better
My advice is to consoom more blackpill content and read some philosophy rope related

 

[VλREN]

Like im grieving for something I don’t even experienced

You know what it is

 

[Cnidoblastos]

I feel worse too. Maybe is the wizard process

 

[poorenglishcel]

I feel like this AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAa

 

[Izayacel]

Another day, another brutal read

 

[kerberos41]

It's just that everything is over, it's at a low ebb, can't do anything anymore, realize that life is over, and every day after that is just a replay of today or yesterday, the soul is dead, but the body is still running because of food and water.