Hey guys, im new here and about to lay something off my chest. This is going to be bit shocking and little long so take your time reading it if u can
. I am from India but fortunately from the northern part so fairer in complexion (better chances of getting laid cuz my country is racist asf!) but alas, here I am a 28 year old virgin.
Had some pajeetas hit on me when i was around 15-16 years old but they always preferred a guy with a richer family and lost interest after finding out im from a poor family. With the constant cries from my friends about their various rejections and relationship problems, i just decided to never be in a relationship ever as i wasnt any better looking than my friends and didn't want to be rejected. Then at 24 years of age i realized im lacking important experience and i would actually be a 30 years old virgin soon. So i decided to go to a red light area, red light areas in india are extremely disgusting and the hookers are revolting. I was nervous as those places are Dangerous but i just went and a woman took me to a room. She was extremely hostile ,4/10 on a good day and just laid in bed asking me to get hard quick within 5 minutes or i cant have sex. They take the money first(nice scam) as it was my first time, i expected her to give me a bj to arouse me but just gave me rough hand jobs for 1 minute and i just couldn't get turned on by her and expected some kind of foreplay but nope. 5 minutes went by and she just got angry, we fought and i left. (got scammed trying to lose virginity) Then i decided to do it one more time. I didnt fap for 2 weeks, no porn nothing. I was getting boners easily but i went there with another average looking hooker. Same problem. Then i just gave up. Fast forward to the end of 2019, i just got promoted as the supervisor in my office. I finally thought things would get better, then covid hit and i lost my job at march 2020 hahaha. But later that year, i found a decent looking black girl online, i found she had an onlyfans page and i told her u have no subscribers, what if i promote u. She agreed, we made a deal on how much commission i would get. Through my marketing skills i discovered i started earning good money as I knew what were men were into, larped as her in her OF, talked to her subs and made them buy her videos and customs. Everything was going good as she was hot and it was generating good money but soon after she said she was falling for me. And as a lonely desperate virgin i said the same. Yes i got in a relationship with her and she even decided to visit me, as me visiting America was challenging. But it was covid and her flight had a trasit problem and she was sent back to her country. My heart broke and went completely numb. Pretty soon after she gave up on me, realised she doesn't need me to run her OF, changed her password and then disappeared. Fast forward to early this year, i found another girl(asian not brown)online from America, who easily gets jealous if she sees any other girl even casually talk to me. That felt good, being wanted and she said she will wait for me. But often she tries to impose her views on me and we quarrel sometimes. Sometimes she just goes away for a while and tbh i dont bother but am nice when she talks to me. Fast forward to now, i found a white trans woman who is a 18 year old virgin. Extremely feminine, great bod, average 6/10 face, pre-op but tiny dick and taller than me kek. She got obsessed with me as i accept everything about her. She follows and listens everything i say. Even asks me to degrade her and just worships me, it feels unreal. Im not gay and i was never into trans women but i view her as my gf now and this is it boys, whatever it takes. The sad truth is i believe decent passable white transwoman>>>pajeetas. Im trying to lose my virginity to a transwoman, its so over or maybe not. You guys are free to critic me or just trash it, all good lol. But thanks for reading and everything said is true
. I am from India but fortunately from the northern part so fairer in complexion (better chances of getting laid cuz my country is racist asf!) but alas, here I am a 28 year old virgin.Had some pajeetas hit on me when i was around 15-16 years old but they always preferred a guy with a richer family and lost interest after finding out im from a poor family. With the constant cries from my friends about their various rejections and relationship problems, i just decided to never be in a relationship ever as i wasnt any better looking than my friends and didn't want to be rejected. Then at 24 years of age i realized im lacking important experience and i would actually be a 30 years old virgin soon. So i decided to go to a red light area, red light areas in india are extremely disgusting and the hookers are revolting. I was nervous as those places are Dangerous but i just went and a woman took me to a room. She was extremely hostile ,4/10 on a good day and just laid in bed asking me to get hard quick within 5 minutes or i cant have sex. They take the money first(nice scam) as it was my first time, i expected her to give me a bj to arouse me but just gave me rough hand jobs for 1 minute and i just couldn't get turned on by her and expected some kind of foreplay but nope. 5 minutes went by and she just got angry, we fought and i left. (got scammed trying to lose virginity) Then i decided to do it one more time. I didnt fap for 2 weeks, no porn nothing. I was getting boners easily but i went there with another average looking hooker. Same problem. Then i just gave up. Fast forward to the end of 2019, i just got promoted as the supervisor in my office. I finally thought things would get better, then covid hit and i lost my job at march 2020 hahaha. But later that year, i found a decent looking black girl online, i found she had an onlyfans page and i told her u have no subscribers, what if i promote u. She agreed, we made a deal on how much commission i would get. Through my marketing skills i discovered i started earning good money as I knew what were men were into, larped as her in her OF, talked to her subs and made them buy her videos and customs. Everything was going good as she was hot and it was generating good money but soon after she said she was falling for me. And as a lonely desperate virgin i said the same. Yes i got in a relationship with her and she even decided to visit me, as me visiting America was challenging. But it was covid and her flight had a trasit problem and she was sent back to her country. My heart broke and went completely numb. Pretty soon after she gave up on me, realised she doesn't need me to run her OF, changed her password and then disappeared. Fast forward to early this year, i found another girl(asian not brown)online from America, who easily gets jealous if she sees any other girl even casually talk to me. That felt good, being wanted and she said she will wait for me. But often she tries to impose her views on me and we quarrel sometimes. Sometimes she just goes away for a while and tbh i dont bother but am nice when she talks to me. Fast forward to now, i found a white trans woman who is a 18 year old virgin. Extremely feminine, great bod, average 6/10 face, pre-op but tiny dick and taller than me kek. She got obsessed with me as i accept everything about her. She follows and listens everything i say. Even asks me to degrade her and just worships me, it feels unreal. Im not gay and i was never into trans women but i view her as my gf now and this is it boys, whatever it takes. The sad truth is i believe decent passable white transwoman>>>pajeetas. Im trying to lose my virginity to a transwoman, its so over or maybe not. You guys are free to critic me or just trash it, all good lol. But thanks for reading and everything said is true
