Interesting thread.
Becoming Blackpilled was a complete journey for me.
Back in high school, I was aware that I was unattractive. Some Chads and Chadlites used to straight tell me that to my face. But I thought that I could still get a chance, so I prioritized approaching foids my looksmatch and a bit under. I never even managed to kiss one of them, but hey, "social life gets better after school", some normies say.
But then things started getting weirder... Earlier in the College days, foids completely ignored me. At least in High School, some would have banters and such, but on College I was completely regarded as subhuman. But I was a fat fuck back then, and I took this in consideration and just thought, "Nah, I should just get thinner". I did get thinner later on, still got ignored and threated less than human.
And then I had also tried to act like a Niceguy to some girls, and, surprisingly, some kinda "reciprocated" for a while, until I realized all I was doing was orbiting them. Some noticed that I was starting to have second interests about them, and as it's creepy for a non-Chad orbiter to make advances, they started ghosting me and not even looking me in the eye anymore.
As I got older, I grew more desperate, and started joining a "losers group" on some gaming forums to vent a bit. It had mostly mentalcels and Chadlites, some of them were into PUA, others where "Redpillers". I gave too much attention to the PUAfaggot and that lead me into cringy situations, I even made a thread about it (NEVER consider it if you aren't Chad, boyos). The Redpillers were aware that looks mattered, but they weren't well informed back then about how Hypergamy works, and still discussed a lot about "being an alpha" and "acting like an alpha", not prioritizing the main topic that are LOOKS.
So I felt I was pretty much the only truecel from that group as well the only Looks theorist, aside from like two and three guys, and took some time outside there.
I used to see therapists for a while, and got told several times typical bluepilled stuff ("just improve your personality bro", "just go outside bro"), and I've got to admit, I did got a bit bluepilled for a while, until I snapped out of it again. Around that time, I started reading "Redpill" stuff to cope a bit.
And then Tinder and dating app shit happened.
The final nail in the coffin, that lead me into the Blackpill, and realizing that maybe I was one of these "Incel" dudes the media is bashing.
I failed to make ANY matches the first time I made a Tinder account, and then I was starting to realize that maybe I wasn't so attractive to women as people around me (of course, my mother) made it seem to be. I made new accounts over time just to make sure, and yeah... I'm definitely not a looker.
I got so so immersed about the Blackpill and about the truth about female nature, that indeed, if I ever ascend, I will follow MGTOW's footsteps and only use women as cumdumpsters and possibly never marry. Women lost all the value to me outside of sex. I get that pumping and dumping further contributes to female promiscuity and that's a wrong thing, but that's exactly what I would do if I magically ascended and could share Chad's prowesses. Women simply are unable to love, they are moved by personal interests (even most selfless acts are just virtue signalling), and they prioritize looks in absurd standards in order to feel validated like the child-minded most of them are. Women assimilates their partner's success as their own, and that's the main reason they seek to get into relationships at all. And between us: most incels don't have the looks of successful men. Women associate male attractiveness into what they have to offer in life. Unattractive men often don't have enough sexual experience, come from shitty family backgrounds, and are poor. And of course, can't be used to be posted as a beautiful face on some couple pic in a foid's Instagram to show to their other shallow friends how she secured a Chad.
I became so Blackpilled that I'm even considering to undergo a plastic surgery. I never considered that before, because people used to say bluepilled stuff like "your nose is different, but it's fine" or something like that, and also because I used to think that plastic surgery is for foids and fags. But I now realize that I will never have an easy time trying to get laid while I have this shit on my face, even if I gymmaxx (there's no gym for my face, and I still wouldn't be able to fuck my looksmatch).