What Was Your Personality Like Before the Blackpill?

[Deleted member 19321]

In my earlier years of high school before becoming depressed I was an incredibly vibrant and witty guy. Normies liked to be around me because I provided them with humor. Reality eventually struck me and I was left wondering what it is about me that is preventing me from becoming popular and loved like the other kids. Once, this group of popular guys invited me out with them but I didn't act as a complete jester funny guy because I just wanted to chill and be friends with them. I slowly could sense their disappointment with me as I failed to entertain them with outrageous comments and they never would invite me out again. Upon continuous failures to gain status despite having a good and outgoing personality I came to notice the pattern. The pattern that attractive and tall men with bland stereotypical personalities still succeeded socially whereas I did not. My previously friendly witty remarks became piercing attacks that would humiliate the person in question as I was mad at how unjust the social hierarchy is. I would get into violent arguments with others because I was just so mad at everything and everyone for being so unfair to me. I am still the same way. All I enjoy doing is using clever remarks to hurt people or rouse them to anger. Being born ugly turned me from a great person into a sadistic schizoid.

 

[Deleted member 21768]

The same but I was nicer. As in how I felt I kept it to myself as there was no point bringing up things I knew could cause issues.

 

[XANDIARIES]

insecure as always

 

[Loner94]

Nothing much changed, lookism hit me like a freight train from a very young age.

 

[nasser22]

In my earlier years of high school before becoming depressed I was an incredibly vibrant and witty guy. Normies liked to be around me because I provided them with humor. Reality eventually struck me and I was left wondering what it is about me that is preventing me from becoming popular and loved like the other kids. Once, this group of popular guys invited me out with them but I didn't act as a complete jester funny guy because I just wanted to chill and be friends with them. I slowly could sense their disappointment with me as I failed to entertain them with outrageous comments and they never would invite me out again. Upon continuous failures to gain status despite having a good and outgoing personality I came to notice the pattern. The pattern that attractive and tall men with bland stereotypical personalities still succeeded socially whereas I did not. My previously friendly witty remarks became piercing attacks that would humiliate the person in question as I was mad at how unjust the social hierarchy is. I would get into violent arguments with others because I was just so mad at everything and everyone for being so unfair to me. I am still the same way. All I enjoy doing is using clever remarks to hurt people or rouse them to anger. Being born ugly turned me from a great person into a sadistic schizoid.

I was never popular. Because I am a short ethnic. That is suicide fuel.

 

[radishman]

I used to have friends and while a quiet kid I always felt joy and just wanted to be outside. Yes I liked vidya as a child, but it wasn't my personality either.

Middle school starts and I start closing myself off and just rotting online.

Right when foids develop and I get a taste of what I'll never have.

 

[CleverJester]

My parents taught me that I shouldn't fight back but rather joke about it, so I used to be the jester as a kid until puberty and real life s.

 

[Deleted member 33091]

I was a very nice guy when I was bluepilled.

 

[Tarblackpill]

Puny eternal victim cuck to be

 

[JestER]

Nothing much changed, lookism hit me like a freight train from a very young age.

 

[Deleted member 32377]

Extremely loving and trusting, innocent and pure, quiet and happy

 

[Deleted member 32183]

naive

 

[Deleted member 19321]

naive

it would have been nice to know from a younger age that it was over before humiliating myself by trying.

 

[Deleted member 32183]

it would have been nice to know from a younger age that it was over before humiliating myself by trying.

If I could go back I would be insanely low inhib and dark triad

 

[N-Digger]

Even before I took the blackpill I was still depressed but still had some hope for the future. Now that a few years have passed my optimism has greatly diminished. When I was in school and hadn't taken the blackpill I still never went out of my way to talk to girls and wasn't interested in pursuing them because they had never shown any interest in me whatsoever. In my teenage years you could say that I was at least partially blackpilled, seeing what was happening but not having a complete understanding.

 

[thespanishcel]

I was blackpilled at university but already in middle and high school was depressed and gloomy because of bullying, not enough confidence, no real friends and all that sheit. But when I was in primary school I was the class clown and I was low inhib af kek, all time doing jokes and replying to the teachers and I didn't care about getting kicked out of the class. Bullying destroys lives.

 

[Deleted member 19321]

I was blackpilled at university but already in middle and high school was depressed and gloomy because of bullying, not enough confidence, no real friends and all that sheit. But when I was in primary school I was the class clown and I was low inhib af kek, all time doing jokes and replying to the teachers and I didn't care about getting kicked out of the class. Bullying destroys lives.

Just imagine the gleaming person you'd be now if it weren't for your looks. Brutal.

 

[bignose]

If I could go back I would be insanely low inhib and dark triad

 

[EdgyPatrician]

I was an outsider then, I am an outsider now.

 

[Quarantined]

always shy, nervous. and scared

 

[Deleted member 27161]

Was nice and extremely high inhib

 

[HeroinNihilism]

I didn’t exactly have a personality, I was just there.

 

[Tenshi]

almost the same but a way more hopeful, naive version of myself. I also feel like I used to be more in touch in my emotional side back then

now it's more like whatever, sometimes I feel like I don't feel nothing at all (weird isn't it?), I feel like a part of me died at some point and I'm nothing but a shadow of my older self. That may be due to drugs as well but I'd say that somewhere in 2019 I got blackpilled pretty hard I have not fully recovered.

 

[CursedSurrogate]

I was once passionate, ambitious and driven. Years of rejection and being treated like shit because of my looks has made me dispassionate and heart-broken. I no longer strive to pursue anything like I once dreamt of doing when I was younger, and I've achieved a lot in my life - there is only NEETdom for which I strive to achieve and rot alone.

 

[Tenshi]

I was once passionate, ambitious and driven. Years of rejection and being treated like shit because of my looks has made me dispassionate and heart-broken. I no longer strive to pursue anything like I once dreamt of doing when I was younger, and I've achieved a lot in my life - there is only NEETdom for which I strive to achieve and rot alone.

brutal

you described exactly how I feel

 

[proudweeb]

I was a Nice Guy who couldn't understand my lack of pussy

 

[Kurt Gödel]

I used to have faith in humanity and looked at the future with hope. The blackpill made me spiral into a depression. Now I just see how unfair things are; look at Jeremy Meeks JFL.

 

[agingmentalcel]

I was a "nice guy" but didn't realize it. Honestly thought I wasn't "one of those guys." Now I'm pretty much just an asshole (the kind women don't like, obviously).

 

[Lebensmüder]

0-8 years: extremely friendly, well-behaved, liked to read, interested in almost everything, sometimes spergy (liked to spam certain topics like fish/dinosaurs/etc.), had many illnesses

9-13 years: very friendly (most of the time), a tiny bit of troublemaking (mostly some verbal banter with other kids)

14-16 years: antitheistic edgelord with an interest in history, dropped many statements for the sake of edginess alone, became right-wing after the refugee crisis (moderate right-wing skeptic to libertarian), lost most of my interests in other topics (like zoology/chemistry) and replaced them with new interests (like criminology/forensics), most of that behavior was created by bullying that I had experienced, my political CV is mostly a result of being raised strictly leftist-liberal by parents/schools, I hated most of my surroundings so I chose the biggest way of rebellion against it (never saw that stuff on the Internet/TV, came up with it on my own after some encounters irl), also was overweight at that point, discovered MGTOWs/MRAs

17-18 years: losing the weight thereby reducing the amount of bullying I experienced, improving physically by lifting, replacing my political ideas with the third position, becoming superficially friendly, helping everyone again (with homework/learning), improving academically (graduated with A levels), not talking about anything that goes on behind closed doors, becoming more nihilistic/blackpilled, disinterest in politics gradually

19-20 years: trying to get my life in order even more, because I wanted to become as popular as possible to get a GF/friend circle, did literally everything socially, met a girl with the same interests, brutal rejection again (the symptoms of her autism/social phobia go away as soon as chad appears), literally realising that AWALT is true and that the shy/nerdy girls want chad only, at the first time seeing how bad it really is for short/ugly men (never thought of my height/face as something so detrimental for my life quality), prior to this I blamed my personality (am diagnosed as autistic) or changeable factors like muscle mass, gradually realising how over it is

 

[kikecel]

I started hating women before I even knew about the blackpill

 

[SoloAlex]

I wanted to save the world.
Now I want the opposite

 

[PersonaPimp]

I was a very nice guy when I was bluepilled.

 

[Deleted member 24876]

I used to be a naive soycuck and sometimes simped for foids . Thankfully I grew out of that phase.

 

[Iamnothere000]

Eager to please.

Desperate for approval and friends.

Naïve.

Simp.

Insecure and to the point of Ego death.



Perfect ISIS fodder.

 

[based_meme]

Less inhibited in calling out bullshit in person. When someone says the kind of thing that's so patently retarded or hypocritical that everybody looks at each other awkwardly I'm the one laughing and speaking up.

 

[Deleted member 32502]

You can't have a likable personality as an incel. No matter what you do people will always perceive you to be bitter, angry, beta, weak, jester, clown, fool etc. People will never respect you if you are not attractive.

Try to be funny? You become the laughingstock and jester. Nobody respects you. Everyone laughs at you, not with you.
Try to be serious? You will look like a bitter incel nerd who takes everything too seriously and is always angry. People think you are a school shooter or a satanist
Try to be nice? Everyone thinks you are a weak beta push over. Everyone knows you are nice because you can't set boundaries. No respect for you
Try to be bland and just blend in? You become invisible and nobody even knows who you are. Not that they care about you. You become the creepy ghost. Girls think you are a predator. Guys think you are a pedo or something.

You can't win if you are not attractive.

 

[Michinomiya Hirohit]

In my earlier years of high school before becoming depressed I was an incredibly vibrant and witty guy. Normies liked to be around me because I provided them with humor. Reality eventually struck me and I was left wondering what it is about me that is preventing me from becoming popular and loved like the other kids. Once, this group of popular guys invited me out with them but I didn't act as a complete jester funny guy because I just wanted to chill and be friends with them. I slowly could sense their disappointment with me as I failed to entertain them with outrageous comments and they never would invite me out again. Upon continuous failures to gain status despite having a good and outgoing personality I came to notice the pattern. The pattern that attractive and tall men with bland stereotypical personalities still succeeded socially whereas I did not. My previously friendly witty remarks became piercing attacks that would humiliate the person in question as I was mad at how unjust the social hierarchy is. I would get into violent arguments with others because I was just so mad at everything and everyone for being so unfair to me. I am still the same way. All I enjoy doing is using clever remarks to hurt people or rouse them to anger. Being born ugly turned me from a great person into a sadistic schizoid.

 

[Deleted member 27159]

Not too different tbh. I always saw foids as whores and toilets. I just thought it was about being alpha, and holding frame. In short I was redpilled before being blackpilled

 

[Deleted member 33216]

I was naive

Not too different tbh. I always saw foids as whores and toilets. I just thought it was about being alpha, and holding frame. In short I was redpilled before being blackpilled

gigabased

 

[Dregster]

In my earlier years of high school before becoming depressed I was an incredibly vibrant and witty guy. Normies liked to be around me because I provided them with humor. Reality eventually struck me and I was left wondering what it is about me that is preventing me from becoming popular and loved like the other kids. Once, this group of popular guys invited me out with them but I didn't act as a complete jester funny guy because I just wanted to chill and be friends with them. I slowly could sense their disappointment with me as I failed to entertain them with outrageous comments and they never would invite me out again. Upon continuous failures to gain status despite having a good and outgoing personality I came to notice the pattern. The pattern that attractive and tall men with bland stereotypical personalities still succeeded socially whereas I did not. My previously friendly witty remarks became piercing attacks that would humiliate the person in question as I was mad at how unjust the social hierarchy is. I would get into violent arguments with others because I was just so mad at everything and everyone for being so unfair to me. I am still the same way. All I enjoy doing is using clever remarks to hurt people or rouse them to anger. Being born ugly turned me from a great person into a sadistic schizoid.

@your personality tell us

 

[Mainländer]

I was a never a simp/whiteknight but I was the typical bluepilled naive guy who thought women enjoyed being treated nicely.

 

[waste matter]

Well, I knew the truth since very young but I was in denial also I was nationalistic and thought there's at least few good women and I wanted the best for the world and humanity.

 

[proudweeb]

I was kinder and not pissed off all the time, but otherwise the same

 

[Made in Heaven]

The same as it is now. I never liked showing my emotions

 

[achref]

everytime i get rejected by a foid i tell myself "There's someone for everyone"

 

[Speed]

I was so naive back then it hurts to think about. Didn't start really hitting me until maybe senior year in highschool. I wish this was around back then, all we had was "Just spin plates brooooo" back then.

 

[coldmachinery]

I'm a NEET who never goes outside, my personality stopped being relevant after HS. I guess I can look back at those times as pathetic jestermaxxing, but my instinct has always been to make the joke and it hasn't changed. Just wish that I didn't pull rabbits out of my ass for everybody.

 

[Animecel2D]

I don’t know, normal I guess?

 

[_realist_]

The same. But more pissed off now.

 

[sadboyo123]

The same as now.