My brother who is schizophrenic NEET
I am loser with zero friends even zero social interaction
is this a coincidence ? Learn how to raise children my dumbass parents
I can't say my parents raised me well either. I would clash with them a lot and their retarded fucking 'rules' sure did not help. I would get yelled at for finishing some food and told to go get some more. It would get to the point where I was scared to open the fridge and take anything out of it because I would get yelled at for it or told to go some far away ass shop because it's 5% cheaper there and god forbid I ask to buy something for myself for all this effort.
I was constantly reprimanded for playing games and restricted with my PC time. Stupid fucks I don't even fucking like playing games anymore; so much for 'getting addicted'.
My mother is a fucking psycho who is obsessed with having it better than everyone else I feel like part of her deranged mental illness has been passed down to me but unlike her I can see it clearly within me and I can isolate and contain it. Try to mention that shit to her and she'll go ape shit I was literally terrified of her as a child because she'll have her episodes where she'll fucking beat me for taunting her on her batshit insane mental traits. She would just go fucking mental like a completely insane person like a fucking animal, there was no reasoning with this woman in that state I would just take the beating and let her calm down.
I can't say I had a happy childhood. I dreamed of getting out of that household as soon as I could. And I did. I am much happier now that I am away. Now that I'm gone my family is so nice and friendly with me constantly asking me to come over and stuff. Now that I left my brother is the scapegoat now. I feel sorry for him but I feel it's better this way maybe he'll make the same conclusion and get out of that toxic household too.
I can't help but to 'love' my family or at least my brothers. I feel sorry that I wasn't a good brother to my younger brother. It was my family fault for mentally destroying me. I would bully him when I was younger but I stopped later and felt terrible for it. I will never forgive my family for what they done to me and sure as fuck I won't let them influence my life for one single fucking second more. They gave me nothing but grief. I have not received a single ounce of supports from this people. Neither material or emotional.
My game was rigged from the start. Everybody was fucking set against me. The whole fucking world was set against me. I hate this mentality but it's true like I actually had a terrible life ngl ded srs.
It's over.
But I'll rise again, this shit ain't over yet. It never will be.
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